JOHNNIE JONES
BLOG #2

THE LAST BLOG I DISCUSSED, SOME OF OF MY PAST, IT'S LIKE TO CONTINUE TO, AS WELL AS DISCUSS MY VIEWS, AND PRISON EXPERIENCES, AS I SAID AFTER MEETING THE WOMAN, WHO SHOWED ME KINDNESS, IT AFFECTED MY WHOLE VIEW, ON HOW I LOOKED AT THINGS, OFTEN IN PRISON YOU GET CAUGHT UP IN THE I DON'T CARE AN"IMUS THINKING, OR WHY SHOULD I CARE, NO ONE ELSE DOES, YOU BECOME NEGATIVE IN THE WAY YOU REACT, TO GIVE YOU AN EXAMPLE, I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN IN MY LIFE NOW, (CAMELA) WHO I LOVE VERY MUCH, BUT BECAUSE OF YEARS HERE, AND THE NEGATIVE THINKING, I OFTEN CATCH MYSELF JUDGING HER ON THE WAY I THINK SHE SHOULD BE, INSTEAD OF BEING THANKFUL FOR ALL SHE DOES FOR ME, EMOTIONS RUN AWAY AND SOMETIMES I'LL SAY THINGS AND THEN FEEL LIKE A BUTT, SO ITS VERY HARD AT TIMES, AND TAKES A LOT OF PATIENTS, AND UNDERSTANDING FROM THOSE WHO LOVE YOU, THINGS ARE JUDGED BY WHAT YOU DO, NOT WHAT YOU SAY, PRISON IS A HARSH PLACE, WHERE THERE IS LITTLE TRUST BETWEEN THE OFFENDERS, AND IT DOES SPILL OVER INTO RELATIONSHIPS YOU TRY TO HAVE, SO LOVED ONES HAVE TO KEEP THAT IN MIND AS WELL, BUT CAMELA AND HER DAUGHTER WILL ALWAYS BE THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE, I PRAY EVERY DAY THAT I DON'T PUSH HER AWAY, SOMETIMES I TRY TO MAKE HER SEE THE MISTAKES I'VE MADE, THAT I SEE HER MAKING, AND IT SEEMS AS IF I'M BEING CONTROLLING OR JEALOUS, WHEN I'M REALLY NOT, I SIMPLY LOVE HER AND WANT TO PROTECT HER FROM MAKING THE MISTAKES I HAVE, TRINITY HER DAUGHTER IS SO SMART, AND FUNNY, AT VISIT SHE'S THE LIFE OF THE PARTY. THEY ARE MY WORLD AND THERE'S NOTHING I WOULDN'T DO FOR THEM... I'VE ALWAYS WONDERED WHY THERE ARE NO LESSER PUNISHMENT FOR THINGS LIKE PROPERTY CRIMES, WHAT I MEAN IS, IF SOMEONE STEALS YOUR CAR, AND YOU DON'T HAVE INSURANCE, THE CAR IS DAMAGED, WHEN YOU GET IT BACK, THE OFFENDER IS SENT TO PRISON, AND THE TAX PAYERS FOOT THE BILL TO HOUSE, FEED, CLOTHE HIM WHILE IN CUSTODY, BUT THE VICTIM IS NOT REIMBURSED FOR THE DAMAGE, PRISON IS FULL OF CASES LIKE THAT, AND EVERYONE WONDERS WHY THEY ARE SO FULL, AND COST SO MUCH, IF I WAS THE JUDGE, I'D HAND SOMETHING DOWN LIKE HE MUST WORK TO REPLACE THE VICTIM'S CAR, COUNSELLING BETWEEN THE OFFENDER AND VICTIM, THE MOST EMBARRASSING THING TO HAVE TO DO IS FACE THE PERSON YOU HAVE WRONGED, OTHERWISE THE PERSON IS JUST AN UNKNOWN FACE... SITUATIONS LIKE THAT HELP THE PERSON REALISE WHAT HE DID WRONG, AND ALLOWS HIM A CHANCE TO CORRECT IT, IF SOCIETY CONTINUES TO TREAT THEM AS IF THEY ARE LOW LIFES, THAT'S WHAT THEY WILL BE, THAT'S HOW THEY WILL REACT, (WHY SHOULD I CARE NO ONE ELSE DOES)... I'M IN WHAT'S CALLED HIGH SECURITY SEGRAGATION, WHICH IS SUPPOSED TO BE FOR THE MOST VIOLENT OFFENDERS IN PRISON, I'M NEVER OUT OF MY CELL, THERE ARE NO WINDOWS, SO I OFTEN HAVE PLENTY OF TIME TO THINK, I'M GIVEN ONE HOUR OF RECREATION EACH DAY, I'M PLACED IN HANDCUFFS AND TAKEN TO A SMALL CAGE WITH A PULL UP BAR, AND A BASKETBALL, THEN RETURNED TO MY CELL, I'M FED THROUGH A SLOT IN MY DOOR, MAIL IS BROUGHT TO ME, AND MY SHOWER COMES ON FOR 15 MINS EACH NIGHT, THERE ARE NO EDUCATIONAL PROGRAMS FOR SEG OFFENDERS, THERE ARE NO TVS, SO WHERE IS THE REHABILITATION? THERE IS NONE... IF YOU HAVE FAMILY OR LOVED ONES WHO SEND YOU MONEY, YOU CAN BUY FOOD ITEMS, AND THINGS LIKE THAT, LIFE ROUND HERE BECOMES A STRUGGLE TO STAY BUSY, TO KEEP FROM LOSING YOUR MIND, THAT'S WHY IT'S SO VERY IMPORTANT TO SEND BOOKS, LETTERS, TO THOSE YOU LOVE. IT'S THE ONLY ESCAPE FROM BOREDOM, THAT IS THE THING THAT AFFECTS ME THE MOST, IS THE PAIN AND ANGER I HAVE FOR MY BROTHER AND SISTERS, IT'S SO HARD TO SHOW THEM, OR TELL THEM HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO JUST RECEIVE A LETTER, OR A CARD, I'VE HAD NO CONTACT WITH THEM FOR A WHILE, SO IF ASKED DO I THINK MY FAMILY CARES? I WOULD HAVE TO SAY NO, BECAUSE THEIR ACTIONS SHOW THAT THEY DON'T, SO PRISON HAS MANY THINGS LOVED ONES MUST TAKE THE TIME TO DISCUSS WITH THE PERSON IN PRISON, SO THAT THEY CAN BETTER UNDERSTAND THE SITUATION AND HOW LIFE IS HERE... IF'S LIKE TO SHARE A POEM I WROTE FOR CAMELA, SHE HASN'T SEEN IT YET, SHE'S UPSET WITH ME, AND HASN'T SPOKEN TO ME IN FOUR WEEKS :(

I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE
BY JOHNNIE JONES

IF YOU RUN, I'LL CHASE YOU!!
IF YOU HIDE I'LL FIND YOU!!
IF YOU BUILD A WALL AROUND YOU, I'LL KNOCK IT DOWN!!
IF YOU PULL BACK, I'LL STEP FORWARD!!
IF YOU GET TIRED I'LL CARRY YOU!!
IF YOU STUMBLE, I'LL CATCH YOU!!
IF YOU HAVE DOUBTS, I'LL REASSURE YOU OF MY LOVE!!
IF YOU BECOME SAD, I'LL MAKE YOU LAUGH!!
IF YOU ARE AFRAID, I'LL HOLD YOUR HAND!!
IF YOU LOOK BESIDE YOU, I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE!!