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Johnnie Jones #656497
2101 fm 369 n
Iowa Park Texas 76367

Thanksgiving as come and gone, hope all of you had the best possible //???? I want to answer some of the comments, as well as wish you the best Christmas holidays...

ANAND from India... Yes the world is often a crazy and harsh place, but love will always see you through, even when it doesn't seem so!!! Best wishes to you and yours, thanks Johnnie.

TIMINMAN Thanks for your comments, I often find myself upset at the people I love, but something as small as my girl or even a stranger showing kindness, will often pull me through the bad moods, I guess just saying I care helps the ones in prison... Thanks, happy holidays!!! Johnnie

SUNSHINE13 Thank you, I'm sorry if my story upset you! Telling my story I wanted to start from the early age working my way up, so anyone that I mentioned in the post from my past are just that, the love of my life, the one person who means the world to me, was in fact mentioned in the very next blog 2, I believe... Sometimes I also become moody, I have a long and crazy past and have trouble with trust, when you meet someone and fall in love, the person writes everyday sends cards, comes to visit, then it all just stops, you often wonder what's going on with the person, could there be someone else??? The person then says there are things going on that prevent her from writing, or coming, but then she turns around and tells you she has gone to spend some time with others, and things like that, you question if she loves you, all she did for you, she's doing for another? Sometimes I don't understand and I will struggle with myself and want to run or pull back to prevent myself from being hurt, I guess in a nutshell I get scared!!! Much love always, JJ

ORPHANNORWAY Hello, how are you??? I hope well, thank you for the response your story really touched my heart, because we have been through so many of the same things often I would wonder why me?? But as you have, I've learned that there are others who have been through the same in their lives, and have gotten better, like mine, your story is sad and happy mixed. What we must do is take the good and build from that, NEVER GIVING UP HOPE, just like you did with your son, NOW LOOK AT YOU!!! Often the things we go through make us a stronger person for the future, and more thankful for all the things we do have in our lives (HA). I can't say that mine has made me more respectful or trustin toward authority, I will always be a rebel/outlaw, but I have a better understanding... You should never think you are unable to love or be loved, that's silly, look at your son, it was your love and dedication to him that gave you the will to fight for him, so apply that same will to your life my friend, and I promise you will find the perfect love when you least expect it, love will always have its ups and downs, it's good and it's bad, but you just have to be patient and often just hold on, NEVER accept one that is abusive, that's not love, look again to the lessons that you learned, you learnt that even through all of your court battles, there were people who cared, people who didn't have to but they did, and that's my whole point, my problem is accepting the way my family does me, to me family are supposed to be there for you no matter what, but as with mine just don't, I can't explain the hurt something like that causes... you shouldn't be paranoid when you meet kindness, have in faith in the person YOU ARE if you accept kindness and the person does you wronf, does that not reflect the low worth of him and not you??? (: THINK ABOUT THAT here in the U.S.A we have cps, org child protective services, they do as your gov did with you son, they often remove the child from the dangerous lifestyle the parent's live, and often we don't see it for what it is, and that's what's best for the child AT THE TIME I'm sure you agree that at that point in your life you were not doing too good? While it's been a battle to win the trust back, it's made you a better person for yourself as well as your son, but you HAVE DONE IT looking back can only make you proud, you went to battle for the love of your son and won, and now have him and so much more, my time in foster care to this day bothers me, but I'm more understanding of the things my parents went through, life is hard at time, I also tried to commit suicide twice in my youth over love, or what I thought love was, once cutting myself, and another taking many pills. That's never the answer, when things are at their very lowest point that's when they will always begin to improve greatly for you, WHEN YOU REACHED YOUR FINAL APPEAL YOU WON... Yes we struggle for the things like clothes, food, but it's love that always see you through the hard time, love that gives you the will to fight and not give up... I'm like you, I don't want anyone's sympathy, and I will often die before asking anyone for anything, or I will think if I let someone do for me it will create a debt owed to that person, but yes it's the person you become regardless of how bad the past was that matters, BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE, never give up, scars heal my friend you just have to trust yourself, be bold and as you already know, fight for the things you want, whether they be love or loss, I think you should always look back at the past mistakes and see the beautiful person you have become after all of it, so you will always know that you are a warrior who did not give up, keep your head held high and be proud of all you have accomplished, as well as the corrected mistakes made... they are you whether good or bad, regards Johnnie...

THE GROWN WOMAN

Knows what to think!
Knows what she sees!
Knows that life is happy and sad at times!
Knows that kindness and laughter will see her through!
Knows that love will always pull her through!
Knows that she's no longer the little girl but now the grown woman, just ask her, she fought for love and won...

Take care all of you, and best holidays to all of you!!!

JOHNNIE JONES