April 1 2013
Reply ID em7m

"Hey Xerxes1717"

Thank you very much for the comment. I really appreciate it when people respond to my posts. Yeah, 2013 has really really sucked 4 me and it's getting worse. I thought it started out like shit but wait till you hear how April is gonna work out. Fuck, it's all bad and I'm not sure that I'll be able to get my ass out of it. So here is my situation as of April 1 2013. Last week my counselor called me in for a pre interview due to she has decided to take me back in front of the classification board. So she tells me bad news. First let me run things down so you will understand my whole situation. A few months back I got 2 write ups and my counselor calls me in, she takes me in front of classification, they punish me for the write ups. The punishment was what is called Cover C status. Which means they fired me from my job and I'm to lock up in my cell Mon-Fri by 1pm. No yard on weekends or holidays either, took 121 days' time for each write up. No visits for 1 year and confine to my quarters cell for 1 month. Now this Cover C status also means that I'll have to lock up, as I said, 1 pm every day, this will be for 6 months. She called me a program failure.

Since I got the 2 write ups I've since got 2 more, I can't explain why, regardless, it happened. Before my counselor called me in for interview last week there was 1 more punishment they gave me for the 1st two write ups. The guards came to my cell and disrespected the fuck out of it. Tore shit up, left it a major mess, papers everywhere, coffee all over the floor. They took my TV digital flat screen, my digital antenna, set of Sony ear buds. So anyways this prison is making me pay to ship these items to the streets. Here is my problem, I have no $ on my account to use to send my shit to wherever. On April 29th, 9am, the guards will donate, dispose of my property. They will most likely just give it to some prison rat. So right now they screwed me big time. Now look, that isn't even the worst of it all. Yeah, there is more to this fucked up year. Now on April 16th, I will go to classification and my counselor is asking classification, which consists of an AW, associate warden, a captain and 2 counselors, to transfer me out of this prison to another prison where I will get "whacked", stabbed for being here. Why they will stab me is due to this prison is a joint that has rapists/child molesters, rats who walk the yard. So when I get to where the bus transfers me to, it will be a yard who all the whites won't allow any inmate to walk the yard who came from a place like I'm currently at. So now I got to try and talk my way out of this transfer.

So my life has really went to hell in a handbag. See, this prison I'm at has no prison politics. It's the mellowest joint in California but there are sex creeps who walk the yard and when they transfer me I'll go to a normal yard with no sex offenders, they will not allow me to stay due to where I'm at now. I'm in a bad situation and I don't know how to get out of it. I'm gonna ask the classification to leave me here and promise to be disciplinary free. Will they do it, probably not, due to the guards, staff think of all inmates as cattle. Also, as far as my TV, property goes I'll need someone to put $ in my account before April 29th or my TV will be disposed of. My brother paid almost $300 for my TV, antenna, Sony ear buds and the guard will throw it away due to I'm on C-status. Here is another problem, I owe $10,000 restitution so California takes 55% of any $ sent to me. So if I can get $ sent I'll have to send enough so that after restitution I have enough left to mail the property to the streets. Who on the streets wants a 13" flatscreen TV, a digital antenna and ear buds? No one wants that crap out there. My brother don't want that crap. He will be mad as hell if he gets that property that costed him $300. I filed an appeal explaining that I have no $ to ship it out. Plus I'm a lifer so I explained that this is my home, I have no home on the streets to mail it to even if I did have the funds to ship it out.

Yeah, it's a sad story but it's the life of a prisoner in California. Was I right when I said 2013 sucks?

Xerxes1717, will I still laugh/smile after this? Yes, I will. I have no choice but to do so. I refuse to let the system get me down. I've been in prison since Oct 19 1994 and I am not up for parole until 2054. We all have sad stories about life. How I was dealt a bad hand etc. I lost my life in 1994 due to drug abuse and a friend of mine shooting someone in front of me and my girlfriend. We all got life sentences over him killing someone. I was convicted in 1995 and a few months later my mother passed away then my stepfather 2 months later. I was sentenced to 68 yrs to life after that and sent to Pelican Bay State Prison.

So was I dealt a bad hand, yeah, I was, but now fast forward to my life today and it isn't getting any better. I will lose my TV and probably get transferred out too. I try and not write such bad ugly posts on my blog because it just makes people who read it feel bad 4 me. "Don't, OK", I don't want anyone to pity me. Thank you so very much for your kind words. Please pray for me, I need all the prayers I can get. April will suck. I don't know what I'm gonna do about my TV and I can't think about the transfer, it's a nightmare.

I will send a good post next time.

Hope it didn't bring u down.

Respectfully

Donnie