HI JENNY!

MY NAME IS CHRISHAUN "CECE" AKA "HONEE BEA" MCDONALD, AND I JUST READ YOUR LETTER... MY LOVE AND PRAYERS GO OUT TO YOU IN THIS CRISIS THAT YOU'RE IN. I KNOW THE FEELING TO BE OPPRESSED, BUT NEVER COULD I IMAGINE HAVING TO SPEND MY WHOLE LIFE BEING IN THAT TYPE OF ENVIRONMENT. TO FEEL NOT YOURSELF, BUT MORE LIKE PROPERTY OF THE STATE. YOU INSPIRE ME TO FIGHT HARDER IN THE CASE I'M DEALING WITH NOW. SO THAT WE AS INDIVIDUAL PEOPLE CAN ALSO HAVE THE SAME RESPECT AS THOSE WHO FEEL THAT WE ARE WORTH NOTHING. I LOVE THAT YOU'RE SUCH A STRONG PERSON, AND YOU GIVE ME HOPE TO GIVE TO OUR FUTURE GENERATIONS. PLEASE NEVER STOP LOOKING FOR WAYS TO GET OUT BECAUSE I'M SURE THERE IS A LOOP HOLE SOMEWHERE IN THIS. BUT IN BETWEEN TIME, I WILL BE FIGHTING THE CAUSE FOR US WITH THIS CASE, AND FOR THE FUTURE.

SINCEREST LOVE AND GRATITUDE,

HONEE BEA

Hello again Jenn! I mentioned in my earlier reply about if you had had any issues with hormone(s) or problems adjusting, etc. This blog clears it up for me and I was wondering if I may write you personally for some much needed advice?? I spent almost 28 yrs as a total mess once puberty hit, and my mother and grandmother BOTH had issues with too much testosterone and not enough estrogen, so when they were finally evened out one of them ended up with hormone fed cancer. I know I am at risk for this myself already, but I can no longer deny myself the freedom I deserve in this crazy world and just want to be happy. I am on two very strong medications- one is a form of estrogen and the other intensifies it for the first six months that you take it, then you HAVE to taper off, its that strong and dangerous. I never knew all of this would be so hard to become used to, physically and mentally going through such changes that thankfully are gradually starting to decrease as the months pass by. The rest I would like to possibly write you about, if you would not mind sharing with me your pros/cons of taking estrogen. For me, someone who never knew they were lacking it so badly, its almost a brand new thing for me to experience like being a new person who doesnt hate who they are anymore and truly can FEEL for themselves and others after years of turning cold on the inside due to being misunderstood. I have also been misdiagnosed countless times before and after puberty and will never forgive the doctor(s) and endocronologist who diagnosed me not by a battery of testing and checking levels but simply by saying that since my blood showed insulin resistance, I must have ovarian issues. (??) She diagnosed me with a serious disease at a young age just by looking at me and a diabetes related blood test which within 2-3 yrs later no longer tested as insulin resistant once I lost 30-40 lbs. Perhaps I did have ovarian issues, but not the kind she made my family believe I had so for years I receive the OPPOSITE kind of treatment medically than I should have been getting! It has been one wild ride since age 14 for sure! Just getting people to listen to me and understand was the toughest ever. I need all the advice I can get from not only friends of mine but ANYONE who understands what undergoing hormone therapy or estrogen is truly like. Once again, stay strong and never change! You radiate true beauty and happiness from your true self! Much Luv, CC

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