Hello again Johnny. I decided to go and read all your blogs. I have a lot of time since I've moved and have unlimited access to the internet. First of all thank you for the birthday wishes, and I'm glad you got your pizza and swiss rolls on yours. You were always a sweeties type of guy. I remember your breakfast of a Dr. Pepper and a reeses peanut butter cup. I cant write you in the normal way so I hope this will help you in some way. Our son has started playing football. He seems to enjoy it although I'm not to sure of it. The thought of guys trying to tackle my son my baby does not thrill me. Ellie although stunning is stubborn and quick witted. The best and worst of us both. As for Michaila she is truely a blessing. You dont know much of her since we split when she was so young. In reading your blogs I remember a lot of the things you write of. I also realize how smart you are and for that I'm glad our children have such a intelligent gene pool. I Often tease my current husband of the disadvantages of breeding with idiots. You think you have a monster ex you should meet his, she has all the charm of an ingrown toe nail. He like you is not able to have contact with his biological children because of thier mothers hate and selfishness. I dont want to be one of your bitter exes dispite my hurt feelings. So if my children wish to write you in this I will allow it. I will not force any of them to do so, it must come at thier own accord. Sometimes Michaila will ask questions of you and I answer honestly even if its not your shineing moment but I will not lie to the kids. We had always said we were not going to candy coat the world for them and I've continued that. She is however the one who looks most like you. Same strong jawline and nose. And although her eyes are brown she has the same intense look in her eyes. I think my only true resentment towards you is my feelings of abandonment for your children. I know life is hard for you but raising 3 kids is hard. With you being held hostage I get no help with child support and I think of all the other women out there in my situation. Its traggic really. The system takes away men who have things that need to taken care of out here and leave the women and children who need them to the wolves. I'm not saying "I" need you but other wives and mothers. Oh cheese and crackers I'm not making sence. As for South Carolina I agree with you on the whole states money hungry greed. For 5 years I've been struggling to get out from under thier grip and now here I am 1500 miles away and having to call and beg them for my release. I think this time I'm almost out of their grasp. Jeff ask if I'll come back and I havent the heart to tell him how much I dispise that place. Ok I've nothing more to say so I'll close this for now. Take care of yourself, Oh and as I had mentioned before when your captors release you, youre welcome to come and visit us.
Opal M.