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12/22/19 Sunday
Waiting here in the darkness for the rain to start - black clouds are covering the sky - not a peek of light slipping through anywhere. Prison quiet - makes a man think about the ones he loves - remembering a few days in '64, the smile on my Jeannie's face in '67 when Carol was born. There's a whole lot to smile about when I look back on all the love that has touched my life in my 73 years. I reminisce with my friend & my sister Mel - all these years and you still put up with me.
12/23/19 Two days before Christmas - It's still raining, started yesterday at yard call - I enjoy walking in a good rain - the quiet on the yard when so few people are out - my only company being old friends and loved ones, all having better conversation than any of these yard lams - wish you were all here - no I don't - I wouldn't wish this place or any place like it on anyone - surely not during the holidays
12/3019 It has been a long week. I spend six days at the S.Q. General hospital in Stockton (not good for me being from Sacramento we spend our entire life talking about we wouldn't get caught dead in Stockton - there's nothing there except the Stockton State Hospital "the next house" and skid-row so at 73 I had a long infection coughing eye blood in all :) I had an I.V. in both arms filling me up with antibiotic the whole time - blood draw every 6 to 12 hours, spit in a cup (mucus) every morning testing for TB just an everyday lung infection that I think I had since this time last year explains the 60+ lbs I've lost hits year and I would still have it if I hadn't seen my lung Dr. a couple of weeks ago and he told this other Dr. (mc PCP) that I needed to get tested for TB and it still took him ten days to see me :) It's all better now - I don't want to put any of the weight back on bt I don't want to lose anymore - at 185 right now and I already look skinny to me. I always heard about how bad hospital food is :) the food was the best there of course I'm used to being slopped like a pig here. The food is uneatable but you force it down anyway to survive - I've sworn off veggies here as they're boiled into mush here - now that I remember what food tastes like I may never be able to eat the slop again and have done any more than test it :), I had a bad night last night - they locked my celly, Ricky, up for saying something to one of the freeman cops - stupid - if he works here he's a cop - he needs to learn he wears a different uniform than they. So far 4 hours 3 of them was in my little 5 by 10 cell and they tore it up looking for a cell phone or anything else they could find - it took me about two hours to pack up Ricky stuff and I spend the rest of the night putting things back together and have more to do today - even took my broom :) I've got a lot more room in here this morning. At least they didn't mess with any of my art stuff (they weren't mad at me). So off to the races today - a little fog outside I hope it doesn't come in any thicker.
January 1, 2020, Wednesday
We begin a new year - hopefully 365 days of better things to come - I wish everybody out there good things throughout the year. The year has started out with the blue skies well I don't know if they're blue right now but they're clear. I've started out the year feeling good this morning :) can't close either hand but I don't have any real pain except where my arms are all bruised up from all the needle holes. I finally got my cell back in order yesterday - maybe I'll clean it today :) There's not so much in here now, they took a lot of junk, stuff I've collected for years, took my broom - going to make it hard to clean, took my wash bucket - going to make it hard to wash clothes :) I'm going to have to sell a draw or two - make a couple of cards or something because my locker is empty I got one toothpaste and no soap and everything else is down to no back-up and to top that all off I ain't had no cookies in a day. I got a couple of messages for new years eve - only took a week - that's super fast for their place. I also got a Christmas and from my heart holder - my love I'll write over the weekend. What a way to end the year. Now I know that the love of my life leaves comments once or twice each month that's what lovers do <3 But know I'm not against some other friends making a comment - they like my poems - they love my love notes - they've read my messy journal - be nice. I'm going to stop for now 1st blog of the year on the 1st day of the year. Smile someone's looking your way. Foods bad.