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Reply for CC
Wednesday October 17, 2012

Dear CC

Good morning! I wanted to reply to your comments, although I am looking forward to personally corresponding with you.

This little battle that I got into with Warden Reddish... my thoughts and actions weren't all that good and pure. It was acts of revenge. I met him over ten years ago when he was head classification officer at Florida State Prison (FSP). He was basically running FSP. I had never seen a classification officer who was given that much control. He abused me and a lot of other inmates, so when his staff began telling me about him being pulled over by Union County Sheriff's Officers for drinking and driving, I seen an opportunity to go after him, and I did, revenge. And that just wasn't a smart thing to do. I hate Reddish with a passion! He's worse than a convict. He's a low life no good unconvicted criminal who stands above and beyond the law. He's a human rights violator. But as I've often said, I don't make the best decisions, and this was just one of my many bad decisions.

And on possibly dying by my own hands on a hunger strike, I had that in mind. I was tired and had that Court granted my motion and granted an injunction, I'd have pushed it all the way. This is a hard place to live and exist in, that death really starts looking good. You start looking for a way out, and death starts to seem like your best option. This cage, this sentence, this existence will drive you mad if you're not careful. This is hell on earth! One of the things that kept stopping me from suicide, just straight up hanging myself, was I didn't want that bastard to get satisfaction out of my death.

I have messed my body up some, I'm noticing a lot more aches and pains. And that's from going six days without water. That was an idiotic thing to do! I won't ever do that again. I did that twice, and both times, I put myself in a very bad place. Just pure stupidity.

Well, I'm going to wrap this up, CC. I look forward to receiving your letter. Please take care of yourself and write soon.

In peace, love + friendship

Ronnie