Dec. 12, 2012

My Education

by Ronald W. Clark, Jr (author's profile)


Ronald W. Clark
November 28, 2012

My Education

Since certain individuals want to comment on my bad spelling and lack of education, let's address that.

I never attended pre-school or K.G. I had problems learning early on, and I noticed it as a kid. 'Cause the teacher would explain things, and all the kids would get it, where I wouldn't have a clue, and I'd be too embarrassed to ask in front of all the other children, 'cause as we know humans are cruel, some crueler than a pack of wild dogs, one will just on you teasing you and the rest will follow suit. Anyways I started the first grade and barely passed it. My life was already wrapped up in chaos, but by the time I get into the 2nd grade, it's worse. I'm going back and forth between my mom and dad, constantly changing schools and classes.

This is how bad it was. One night I'm with my mom, I go to sleep in my own bed, only to wake up in the middle of the night in the back seat of a car heading to my dad's house. My clothes were packed and my Granddaddy's shotgun was in the back seat with me. To this very day, I don't know what that was about. On top of that, I was dealing with a sick individual who was molesting me.

I failed the 2nd grade twice. I passed that on the 3rd try and then I'd pass the 3rd, 4th and 5th grades. Two weeks into the 6th grade, because of my size and being behind two grades, the school bumped me up to the 7th grade. Needless to say, I failed that and summer school. The start of the next school year, 1982-83, instead of repeating the 7th grade and actually learning, I'd start the 9th grade. So I went from the 5th grade to the 9th grade without passing. In the 9th grade I was in all special ed classes. I barely passed. In September 1983 I would start the 10th grade at Fernandina Beach High School. But I was dealing with a lot of crap. My dad had burned the house down for the insurance money. He did that because he was about to lose the house, and he had did this somewhere around the end of August '83. So we're moving to a new place, seems like every couple of weeks.

I was already using drugs. I had been smoking weed since I was about 11 years old. And alcohol I had all my life. My dad gave me beer in a baby bottle. In late 1983 my dad was sitting on the steps of a trailer we were renting in Yulee, I seen he was stressed, I asked him what was wrong, he said we didn't have any money and no food and he didn't know what to do. So I made a suggestion for him to go to Glen's, a drug dealer friend of his, and let's start selling. I was already hanging out with all the potheads in school. I began selling, and I stopped going to school and began hanging out on the streets 'cause I could sell more.

I dropped out of school at 15 years old in the 10th grade. I never learned algebra, verbs, nouns, pronouns and all that good stuff. I don't have a clue. That's stuff I should have learned in the 6th, 7th and 8th grades. Which as I just informed you, I didn't attend.

In the 1990s here on the row, I wrote a request to get into the GED program. I was informed that I could not attend and participate in educational programs due to my being sentenced to death. I then attempted this again in 2002-03 and in 2005 only to be denied again and again.

I got a hold of a GED book, but it wasn't very useful, without having a teacher or instructor to explain things and be able to answer my questions. Simply reading it didn't do any good. 'Cause you can read something over and over again, if you don't understand what you're reading then it's nothing more than a bunch of meaningless words.

And those who think my spelling's bad, you should have seen it in the early 90s. Wooo was it bad! Oh, and I had a dictionary. It was stolen by officers on May 21, 2012 when they assaulted me and placed me on strip cell. I then had someone send me a new dictionary that never showed. Several weeks ago, I did get a dictionary in. I haven't had a cell light for over three weeks and can't see the words. And I don't have spell check.

Now you know and have a history of my extremely poor American education.

In peace and love

Ronnie :)


Replies (15) Replies feed

Schneehase Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Hi Ronnie,

don´t waste too many thoughts on critics about your spelling.

There are other blogs and on one, I´ve seen two examples of hate mail to the writer.

In comparison with the spelling and grammar of those pro DP letter authors, you are a genius.

(And that does mean something if even I notice the mistakes as I´m far from having a perfect English as it´s not my native language.)

In my eyes, the contents of a blog entry and comment is much more important than the spelling. After all, you´re not in school anymore and don´t need to get good marks.

Nicki Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Considering the history you explain, and the challenges you continue to face, I congratulate you on getting your message across so eloquently.

You are conveying a very clear message and that is all that's important in this forum. Thank you for sharing!

SAH Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
NICKI- you seem to want to "bond" with all these death row inmates. I have not read anything by you for the victims. Perhaps you have never been a victim. Your nose up the ass of these men on death row makes me want to puke.

Nicki Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
I hold the very simple belief that hatred breeds hatred. It therefore makes sense to me that kindness breeds kindness. I believe in humility and humanity. None of these people have harmed me, and perhaps none of them have been treated with kindness, perhaps my voice is one that can make a positive difference. We all need someone to believe in us. To believe we are capable of more. Capable of doing better and creating a more harmonious world for us all to live in. I am happy with the fact that my voice on this site is your opposing voice SAH. I hope my comments provide hope in a place where it seems there is none.

Continuing to do wrong to those that have done wrong will only continue a cycle of hatred and I will not be a part of that.

Nicki Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
I also value Between the Bars as an important learning resource, as a psychology and criminology student. It concerns me that if bloggers only receive negative comments, they will stop contributing here and I, and others, would lose their valuable contributions. I am here to learn from and encourage personal change in those society has thrown away. Why are you here SAH? it often seems like it is to seek random vengeance for your lost loved one. I'm sure that is not the legacy they intended to leave you with

SAH Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
First of all, my reasons for being here are not your concern. You're not sure of anything (especially the legacy I leave or intend to leave). What a pompous statement...that you're sure about what my family would have wanted.

With that said - you're entitled to blog anything you'd like. Earlier there was a statement on here that as of 12/12/2012 Mr. Clark had nearly $350.00 in his commissary acct yet his blogs are full of whining about needing to cut back on his art as his paints are low. I believe he deliberately misleads the readers in the attempt to solicit funds. I find that underhandedness deplorable.

If you want to give Ronald Clarke the warm fuzzies you go right ahead. Let him rant and rave about Warden Reddish and his henchmen while you hold his hand. Not me.

I don't seek random vengeance, Nicki. I am a victim of Mr. Clarke's (one of MANY). I'd hardly call that random.

Society did not throw these death row inmates away. They are ALL there because there was a murder, they were accused, tried by a jury of peers, and convicted. They, themselves, are responsible...not society.

Have you considered that Mr. Clarke did and continues to defame the former Warden (Reddish). He did and continues to publish undocumented rumors of DUI incidents he has no knowledge of. The records do not reflect his statements. He needs to stop that. His records, however, do depict his crime(s).
There are many other crimes for which he was NOT convicted.

SAH Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
One more thought, Nicki. Mr. Clark's posts are RIFE with anger and hatred (directed, usually, at the prison administration). BTB has allowed him to fuel his hatred by publishing his rants. Have you considered contacting him personally via snail mail and offering him another venue to vent? Do you honestly think your comments here are going to change Mr. Clarke's demeanor and/or behaviors? Mr. Clarke (as far as I can determine) will never be paroled. He is and will continue to be incarcerated until his number comes up or his higher power decides to forgo that process. That's not my call nor, thankfully, will I ever be asked to make that decision.

Sure, I agree that life on death row certainly seems like a living hell. I do correspond with others on "the row". I am not completely void of empathy and compassion.

The others, however, do not continue to spew hatred or I wouldn't waste my time and/or energy communicating with them (let alone offer any comforts such as commissary). There is an inmate in California to whom I regularly provide $$$ to fund his family's telephone acct. Without my funds, they would be unable to receive his collect phone calls. Gigantic relief for them and a small sacrifice on my part. I also regularly provide funds to others in need. Can you say the same?

As a student of psychology and criminology, surely you know that not all death row convicts are created equal. Some are just bad seeds and need to be removed before they taint the flower bed. While that seems harsh in print, I'm again grateful that I'm not making the decisions as to the fate of Mr. Clarke. I will say I think he could use his time much more wisely rather than his ad nauseum rants.

Nicki Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
The legacy I spoke of was not your own, but that of your daughter. I know myself, if my life was taken, I would not rest easy knowing my mother showed bitterness towards others as a result. I would hope she sought out the help she needed and found peace. I would not want her to be a 'victim' for the rest of her days. Your comments towards the man that perpetrated the crime against your loved one are not random obviously, but negative comments I have seen you leave on other bloggers posts, are.

Over the course of my time here I have not paid much attention to Mr Clarke's blogs and this was perhaps the first comment I have ever left for him. I do not take much from reading what can be interpreted as personal attacks on blogs, and don't pay them much attention, just as I don't appreciate personal attacks about the comments I choose to leave.

You asked me "Do you honestly think your comments here are going to change Mr. Clarke's demeanor and/or behaviors?".

Interestingly, it is not Mr Clarke's demeanor and behaviors I am as concerned about changing, as your own. I chose to comment on this post because it showed me that Mr Clarke has taken the time to look at what is being said, and asked himself... 'why are they saying these things, and lets look at why that might be.' To send in the submission he has, it shows me that he spent a lot of time on self reflection, and this is what leads us all to personal growth. I'm not suggesting for a moment that he's reached the stage of enlightenment, but he's trying and should be commended for that. That is why I chose to offer my support for this particular post and that is what I hope all of my comments encourage.

kimberlita Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Nicki, I just have to comment here on a few things, my personal opinion as well as first hand knowledge, that you clearly don't have. As far as you being "a psychology and criminology student" (ha - excuse to cover the truth you can't admit out of shame, see people out here won't accept you if you simply say, I am writing this man, taken an interest) you said "It concerns me that if bloggers only receive negative comments, they will stop contributing here and I, and others, would lose their valuable contributions". Contribution to what? ALL they know is what is on TV. PERIOD.

Enlightenment? On WHAT? Commended for what?

What is their valuable contribution, Clarke for example? He contributes exactly what to the expansion of your mind, and learning? Do you know that most all he says about the abuse there is false?? Heighten security? Is because he attempted to escape - his "wife" is in prison now, the endless things he has done to violate the rules there..... as well as this blog. Did you know they are not allowed to solicit money and pen pals, yet he slyly continues to use this blog venue as a direct measure to meet his personal needs. Valuable contribution? Grade school thoughts, art, waste of tax payer money, lies. Do you think these men made a vaulable contribution to society or can? ha.

These people are lost, have been and will remain so, there is a reason society has cast them away, for the safety of the contributing citizens.

Their only hope is God and.... instead they seek pen pals, money,. scamming women. You say he may never had any kindness, how little you know about this particular inmate, or how life really revolves for caged animals. You made a miserable comment here for his mother to read. Shame on you.

kimberlita Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
You diss SAH, for bitterness - It would be hard for you to project your level of bitterness as well as what dead child would want to do do - feel.
Personal growth for Clarke and ALL would be... GED, accepting the restricted environment he put himself in, using a part of his income to promote the lives of others in need - after all he is not working for it.... send 100 a month and mentor a youth. Not seek a women to love and kiss him. That is self centered ambitions. Much that physocapths do.

kimberlita Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Nicki, then you say "Interestingly, it is not Mr Clarke's demeanor and behaviors I am as concerned about changing, as your own."

What? Go save the lost. Our demeanor and behavior fits directly inline with what society deems as functioning citizens able to determine between right and wrong, moral an immoral. SAH isn't writing this post from a 6x9 animal cage. She still has empathy to help those criminals per her post. Who are YOU to be concerned abut changing people out here? I somehow think you are a catfish writing this blog from a women's prison yourself.... false.

SAH Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Bravo, kimberlita. Well said. I do try to temper my comments to fit the situation, but it appears here I have riled some feathers. The difference between myself and my haters is that I typically don't comment on situations I have no knowledge of (either by research or by personal experience). Nicki, by her admission, appears to know little of this inmate. Again, thank you for your verbal support. Expressing oneself in a civil manner is sometimes a very difficult job but I'll keep trying.

Nicki Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Together your comments are a rather entertaining social example of groupthink. There's always something more to learn here. <3

I may be stooping to your level with this comment but I'm amused by how you bring a mental picture of Statler and Waldorf (from the Muppet Show) to mind :)

SAH Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Sorry, don't watch (and never did)the Muppet Show. I do, however, read at least 4-5 newspapers daily and keep abreast of local, state, national and international news.

Happy that you're amused and this topic conjures up that mental picture. Ignorance is bliss, as they say. In your case I believe that to be true.

There will NEVER come a time when discussing death row inmates that my mind would paint a cartoon image for my amusement. There is nothing amusing about any of the crimes that resulted in incarceration on death row.

As far as you stooping to our level, that's just absurd. You would need a step ladder. Bending would not be necessary. Just 'sayin.

In closing, I find your use of the term "amusing" highly inflamatory and reckless.

SAH Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
The concept of "groupies" who gravitate towards relationships with DR dwellers (albeit one-sided as we all know MOST death row inmates are totally narcissistic) is nothing new. A "student" in psychology and criminology should be familiar with the concept. I believe in the U.S. we'd call that 101 or beginner studies. Your cliche (entertaining social example of groupthink) sounds, well, very close minded and not well though out before you committed it to paper. Do you communicate verbally that way as well?

I'm sure by now you've had a chance to research RC, no? By now you surely have slaved through his voluminous posts about his abuse, his heightened security, his dismal childhood, his no recreation, his fraudulant DR's and the fact that he's running out of paints and may not be able to produce many more cards (since he can't make money on them). Of course, you know the situation about why his mother is RESTRICTED from visitation, right? His knee hurts, he's depressed AND he's downright angry that his co-defendent is already out of prison. Did you read about his life prior to incarceration - selling drugs (even to children)? Read any of his trial transcripts to appeals? If not, why not? If so, is your opinion the same? He had nearly a novel's worth of rants about Warden Reddish and continues them in nearly every communication even though that admin, for the most part, has been relocated. Does this sound like someone who has or is willing to atone for the wrongs he has committed in society? Hell no. Not in my book.

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