Sept.6,2016: 4:00pm: Listening to: Hymn for the Missing By: Red
Dear Jamie,
Hi, Just got your past post and it was very nice to hear from you. I'm okay writing like this, but remember nothing is private. I'm glad you like the song Heaven By Otherwise. You are far but I have family I write to in Italy. Cost about 2 Eros per letter. Did you look at my Profile page and see what I look like? I don't remember what photo is on there but it farly old. I don't understany why you can not see my photo's on FaceBook. My brother told me he made it public so anyong could see it. I have no computer access, so my sister Jen is supposed to monitor it but she really doesn't. My daughter Krista will be 19 nexp month. I was really broken before , I thought I had to be like everyone else,I thought because I had been in jail, I had to always be the tough guy, but I learned that I don't. It's ok to care about something other than myself. But sometimes I wonder if its too late on life to bother changing. I started this New Journey and I just don't know if its worth it. You really made me laugh, Thank Yo. You said you want to help and fix people, but well that doesn't go really most of the time...That was funny. But don't give up trying Jamie. But I decided a few years ago, not to give up on myself. Others might have but I wont. No, I didn't mean for you to send me a handwritten letters. Typing is 100% Okay. I type because my hand writing is terrible.I suggested mail because its private and more personal. I was a bad boy because I though I had to be like that. That's not me anymore.
No, no one cared about my Uncle hitting me when I was a kid. But those days are long gone. Somethimgs I would like to figure out where and how I went wrong, but then I say why bother, I cant change the past and fix what I've done wrong. Pluss even if I do figure it out I could still be wrong.
This country just ruled this year that it is against the law to give a juvenile (under18) a life sentence with no prole. But what do they get instead, 40-100 years in prison. To get out in their late 50's , after at least 40= years in here, would be very hard to readjust.
Okay, you are 16. And originally from Germany. Let me tell you a story. I was looking for an Italian pen pal to help me learn Italian. A woman in the Netherlands connected me with her friend Christine. Christine had a 14 year old Daughter Lisa. Lisa was the one to help me. But long story short, this was 2004.Now 2016. 12 years later, My Italian still sucks but I have 2 friends, a mother and daughter, both I love very dearly and they are family to me. Christine is like a 2nd mom to me and Lisa is the little sister I never had. But just a few years ago, I found my 2 little sisters, so now I have 3 little sisters. I'll tell you what, go on line and contact my sister Jen.Give her your address and I'll send you a photo.My sister Jen is a really good girl, she has a daughter about your age, my niece destiny. Her name is Jennifer Bennett.She is on Facebook.Just ask her to please send me you name and address. Okay.
No, if you have no psychiatric issues and if you are not on psych meds, you don't get any counseling or therapy in Pennsylvania prisons. Well I think you wanting to become a psychiratrist is great and if you do, I'll be your guinea pig. you can practice on me.
As for the 2 guys I spend the nights with, othe are dying of cancer.
Now I am going to warn you. I'm telling you this for your own good and to keep you aware and protected. You're 16, your young, you have a cery caring heart and you want to help people. This is what "Users" inprison look for. So please be careful on who you write to in prison. Do not do or say anything to any prisoner that makes you uncomfortable. Promise me that. You're 16, You are even younger than my Krista. Promis me that you will not let another person that you write to on this blog manipulate you. As a psychiatrist you have to be able to see that and not be reeled in. So if someone asks you to say or do anything that makes you uncomfortable,please say no.
Wow, you just watched the old t.v show prison break. That was a good but very fake show. You want to see a fake prison show, watch the one called"OZ". But I warn you. It is very Volient,gruesome but was a great show.So you're German. Why are you in Swtzerland? I was told once that the bottom of Swtzerland, where it touches Itaily, they speak Italian, any truth to that? My friend Christine