Personal Journal

4/10/20

I tell myself I don't fear anything but when I look back the truth is I've feared everything - bumps in the road.

I saw the R.N. Weds about my weight loss; over 70lbs - yesterday I started on a nutritional drink - Boost - 360 calories, 14g protein, vanilla flavor. Great coffee :) coffee creamer. I don't want to put weight back on but I need to stop taking it off and I need to get some energy back.

4/12/20 Sunday morning

The temperature is warm - not cold anyway :) 50° maybe. I put on a clean set of sweats after I birdbathed this morning - had to, I had night sweats again last night. Need to change my sheets. I [illegible] a couple of [illegible] sets in my clothe box. My celly said I was laughing in my sleep. That's a good thing - I'm usually fighting - I end up waking myself up when I start hitting the walls or kicking the desk (that hurts). Had to take a break, can't write without making a mess. A second cup of coffee seems to be working :) I can't close my hands but they don't hurt unless I try to force them. I think it's going to be a good day - no clouds in the sky. The word is that someone on B-yard went out to court and came back with the c-virus. We were told that there would be no one coming into the prisons from jail and no movement between prisons - maybe it's just another rumor but did shut down the vocational shops. Only P.I.A and KP workers, yard workers, office workers; and on [illegible] building porters - like I'm able to do any work :) now if I could just figure out a way to get paid :) I did finish another painting - the windmill and the [illegible] pond :) I think it looks good. They took people's [illegible] to there c-p(?)t Friday said that could spread the c-virus. They also stop breathing treatments for everyone until this thing has past.

4/13/20
The mail's coming a little faster here on my end now. It seems there is less people working in the mail room because of the c-virus. They're taking less breaks :) cutting them back to what they're supposed to be :) cutting out some steps to handle the mail less - anyway we're getting it two or three days from the post mark down from 10 or 12 days :) I don't know why but it's cold in the cell this morning. Looking out the window the sky is clear and we're looking forward to a warm day - not that my building will be going out - we're not on the new rotation for today. They have the four buildings in our rotation one morning, one afternoon, one evening so every fourth day we off the rotation, better than the other two guards they have five buildings :)

4/14/20 Wed
It's confirmed we have our first case of the Coronavirus. The one from B-yard. They brought him over here and put him in the hole because he refused to wear a mask (one of the buildings on this yard is used for lockup - the hole :) ) A friend of mine is making masks - nice ones - he said he would have me one made by Friday - right now I've got a couple of dollars to pay for it :) I'm making a card with cartoon characters almost everyday now. Rules I've set myself for Love Notes: No more than a page - just a line or two will do - No crying or complaining - Talk about love, dreams, friends & family good things that are happening - Can be to any loved ones with us or not. If I want to complain I'll put it in my journal. I seem to have time on my hands since this virus program has started. I never miss a yard call - morning - afternoon - night. The same with dayroom and I still feel like I'm spending more time in the cell; getting a little bit done. starting drawing something out to paint yesterday form an ad I saw on t.v. A two-line of apartment windows with people in all of them like on the news - I think I'll call it sheltering at home :)

4/15/20
Just want to close off and get this in the mail today - I'm doing fine and hope everyone else is alright. Thank everyone for the time they're giving us. Food's Bad :)