Dymitri Haraszewski
Blog # 1660

Comment Reply (Jazzy)
Reply ID: 7rt9

11-15-24

Jazzy Jeff (Jonny)

You know what? I really appreciate your last comment. A lot of what you said is spot on. Without analyzing it too closely myself (and wasting time, as you pointed out :) ), I suppose I invest in this blog for a number of reasons, but the main one is probably that it's an insurance policy, in a way? Insurance for it I don't ever make it out of here - and the truth is, I don't expect to anymore... hope, but not expect - I won't just die without leaving even a ripple in the world. In my real life, my friends and family could truly know me, and the impacts I might have in those lives was enough. I never needed or wanted to be "bigger than myself", but now I don't even get that much; don't even get to be myself in any meaningful way for anybody else. Most of my past is stripped away and hosed down with bleach, almost no evidence at all I ever even existed. I'm really just trying to do things now that prove I do, and that I did. And that I'm not the one-dimensional cartoon the systems wants to make me.

I totally agree with you on not falling into a "keep hope alive" trap - a bunch of feel-good blabbering - and also that courts don't reverse convictions for helping others and pigs never changing. But I know my odds are slim, so investing only in what may pay off but probably won't... I guess I just feel a need to hedge my bets now. Hope for the best (and keep working toward it) but prepare as well as I can for the worst. I don't even KNOW what would be best or worst anymore, honestly. Pigs will never change, but I get involved as I can with movements that will hopefully result in far fewer of them someday. And litigation that may force them to be less abusive, whether their character changes or not. I wish more ppl had fought for themselves in ways that could've helped me when my turn came, so I can at least do what I can now to make the next guy's path a little less terrible.

I don't know "Welch", sorry. Could try looking him up but that's time I don't want to use. Anything I know comes from other ppl, you understand that, so it's all just bits and pieces. "Too radical for him", you said? :) IDK what you mean, exactly, but I suspect I approve, lol. Our motives might be different, but radicalism is almost always alright by me. Take care. FTP/ACAB. (Time spent: ≈ 13 minutes. Not too bad. :) )

P.S. - Congrats on the 6 years out. Do good stuff!