April 28, 2011
by Christopher Trotter (author's profile)


Dear Outside World,
Has anyone out there ever looked in the
mirror in the early morning and said, 'There
has to be a better way?' I'm sure some of
you have. I say that to myself every
morning when I open my still curious brown
eyes inside this belly of the beast. There has
to be a better way.
I'm sick and tired of people telling me
how I should do my time and live my life.
Since I've been inside the belly of the beast (prison)
I've learned a lot about myself and what I want
and need from life. I finally figured out that
I rock! I'm solid as a rock. I'm a collection
of characteristics both physical and mental
that makes me completely unique. No one else
anywhere is exactly like me, and I realize
that not everyone who crosses my path will be
interested in what I have to offer. But my
strength comes from my belief that someone
somewhere can and will appreciate me for
who I am and what I am.
Stop telling me how I should act and
be!! No one can determine who I am but
myself. They can offer me advice,they can
guide me, but in the final analysis the problem
is completely mine for I have abilities that are
completely unique to me and the challenge is
for me to discover them, to develop them and
to use them, for then and only then will I
know who I am...
Now tell me, who's your self-esteem?
Is it other people who make you seem?
Is it what you wear and all that gleams?
Is it the color that makes you black, white
blue or green?
Is it ownership, borrowed, given or still
Can you taste, touch, smell or even keep it
dirty or clean?
No it's you and all your thoughts in between
it's how you feel
and what you know
it's how you encompass your power
to change and grow.
You're the only one to make that personal
image work
even if you have a couple of secondary quirks
it's up to you to acknowledge it
and accept yourself as a gift
it's up to you to take that optimistic challenge
and uplift yourself...
Despite my circumstance
of being inside this belly of the beast (prison).
I am the boss of me! I can see, hear, feel,
think, say and do. I have to tools to survive,
to be close to others, to be productive, and to
make sense out of this crazy world. No one
can tear down what I've built up inside
of me.
I know I'm special and that I still have a
lot to offer. If people can't see that then
they are not only ignorant but blind also.
I'm strong but human!
By: Christopher Trotter


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sharyn Posted 9 years, 12 months ago. ✓ Mailed 9 years, 12 months ago   Favorite
hi christopher,
Stix and stones friend. how are you. i appreciate you giving the outside world a peek into you life inside the wab. i will say a prayer for you asking the force that is greater then i to lessen the rigors and monotony of doing time.
kind wishes,

akayanelson Posted 9 years, 12 months ago. ✓ Mailed 9 years, 12 months ago   Favorite
Greetings Chris,
You are a very unique! U simply amaze me with inner strength and having the knowledge of who you are.U keep it all the way real, which in there, out here its so increasingly hard to find in an individual! Im so elated that I watched "extended stay" tonight for I may have never had the pleasure of meeting you. I must say I love what you said to Dick blah blah to get out of isolation.So how are things working out in general population? I have faith that your making it work.I apologize my name is A~Kaya.I am a full-time proud mommy. I have all young men ranging in these ages:17,(today)15,11,7 and 4.Do you have any youth? I'm mixed, petite build and I too have locks.So I have talked your head, figuratively speaking.So I'm not sure how this works.I check back within a few dayz! OK now I do. I'll give you my info.Allyson Nelson 3130 westbrook Dr.#B Cincinnati, Ohio 45238. I can't reread what I've written so my apologies for any errors. I hope to hear from you soon. Take care and Bless up Ras

outsideworld Posted 9 years, 12 months ago. ✓ Mailed 9 years, 12 months ago   Favorite
hey christopher don't lose hope. you can always be free in your dreams and they cant take that from you. maybee someday you can flyout of there

ATouchedSoul Posted 9 years, 12 months ago. ✓ Mailed 9 years, 12 months ago   Favorite
Hi Chris!
I recently viewed your episode on lock up: Sticks and Stones. I loved your poem about Frankenstein! You are very gifted! Your delivery was amazing as well. I think it is your voice that made it sound really great. Your voice is very distinctive and different. I don't really know how to describe it.

I hope all is well with you. Continue to write great pieces of work so that you are able to leave your legacy on this earth even from "the belly of the beast" :)

Take Care,

An Inspired viewer.

conilee Posted 9 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 9 years, 10 months ago   Favorite
Hello Chris,

Not sure how all this works however I just came by your response not knowing it was there. I do intend to write to you. I can see so many others share the same interest.. Do you have internet access? I see by my comments it will have mailed dates. I will drop you a few lines by mail... looking forward to your response....

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conilee Posted 9 years, 9 months ago. ✓ Mailed 9 years, 9 months ago   Favorite
happy <3-day Chris,
I will be sending you a letter/card through the mail. I must say your email came on time... I would love to be a pen-pal, it would be my honer.


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