Dec. 10, 2010

Your Explanation: Turmoil

by Brandon Rucker (author's profile)


December 5, 2010


To: Understanding?
From: Outside looking in.

How do you open up to any woman and be honest in doing so without having fear that she's going to hurt you to the point where death seems better than life. I'm asking because I do want a wife and kids and more importantly want a real and uncompromising love. I'm 28 years old, I'm not crazy or deranged. I'm looking for help because I can't do this by myseld. I've given my soul and heart to one then another just to have it sent into the grinder after that I tend to look at women as being extraordinarily and fiercely tedious. For the record I do not hate any women who walk this earth. I hate their actions that have me fighting myself. The inadequateness, the hurt of the comfortable franticness slip into when a woman even approaches me. I would like to know how to get past this and truat again and trust without wonder. No ifs, just understanding.


Mr. Rucker

P.S. I find strength in honest wisdom so please be brutally human in your answers.


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Nicki Posted 11 years, 9 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 9 months ago   Favorite
I see this post is 2 years old now but thought I'd comment regardless, (in case you still haven't realised the answer on your own) I taught myself the answer to your first question when I was 18 & faced with the prospect of being 'hurt to the point where death seemed better than life'. I believe the answer to be you must love 'yourself' first and foremost. To to show yourself a healthy respect (which also makes you more lovable in the eyes of others) love with all you have, but don't ever forget yourself in the equation. & yes; a lot of women are fiercely tedious... haha.


LisaHeard Posted 11 years, 8 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 8 months ago   Favorite
Thanks for writing! I finished the transcription for your post.

Brandon Rucker Posted 11 years, 6 months ago.   Favorite
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