How is my Prince doing, I got your card today and it was a surprise because I knew you didn't have any money but don't worry give me a couple of weeks and I will send you a little something. I had a breakdown today, I will read the scripture you suggested and I know God don't make mistakes but that doesn't mean it won't hurt. I love all of the grandkids but a few of them hold a special spot in my heart and he was one of them. The ones that lived with me and I held and they slept with me and I nurtured as if they were my own birthed children. My heart is heavy and I can't stop crying, it feels like a part of me is gone. I keep hearing him say grandma just one more please: talking about the nacho's from the store he loved them and everytime he came over he would probably eat them until he got sick if I let him. I keep remembering getting up at night to make sure he was breathing ok and if he need to use his machine. I know in time I will be alright but for now, I grieve for my baby. Don't worry I need to grieve to be alright. I thank God for our time together and I wished it was more, I also thank Him for all of you. I thank Him for his son Jesus and for all of His goodness and mercy. I just wanted to send you something for the holiday season for you to hold on to, I love you, I miss you and I am looking forward until you come home. Until we speak or see one another I send you the Fathers blessing.
Joe, you are doing a great job with your blogs. I know it takes a lot of courage to tell your story, but if yoiu help just one lost soul it will be worth it. I know God is working in you and you are making a difference. I hope to get down to see you soon. I love you, Aunt Jenny
No more breaking wind on Festivus, either! Dude, thanks for your card, Mon! Just got it. Great photo, too. You're looking pretty thspicy, m'boy. Ha! Ja, ja, go pump some iron!
The kids loved the Grinch reference to the black banana. They're like, "You guys watched the Grinch? I didn't know he had a TV show..." Ha. No kids, just the 30 min cartoon.
Everyone's fine enough. Carter has epilepsy and Tourette Syndrome. Medication helps. I'm into Mindfulness more and more each day. Reading another book on it now. I've got Carter doing it to help calm his brain.
Ryker and Kemmer are fine. Peggy and Tanner both have the polychondritis stuff. Yuck. Oh well. Some of us get more rocks in our trick or treat bags than others.
Can't wait to see you again and do the ol' bro-bear hug! I've missed you, so keep on doing what you're doing. You're definitely stronger because of this and you'll make a difference when you're out.
Merry Christmas, dude. Thanks for the big laugh on Buddha. That was so funny! He'll open up a can!
I just wanted to post a note to you after reading your blog and let you know that what you post does matter. PTSD is a tremendous problem that I think the military is unequipped to deal with right now. I thank you for your service and I know that you have the support of your fellow Marines. I know a couple of people with PTSD including my ex-husband who will not admit it and the husband of a friend. I have seen how it makes people react in situations and it can be scary. I also laughed at the post about your birthday because I did the same thing this year - I was 49 or so I thought, but no I am 48 - somehow it makes you feel a bit better to gain a year! I hope that 2012 is a good year for you and it sounds like you have the core strength to get through this as well as support of a great group of guys who respect you. Take care and I will be watching your posts and look forward to seeing how you are doing.
Leslie
Posted on Court Battle by William D. Linley (David)
I have been reading your posts and think you have a clear voice and things to say. Keep up the writing. I may drop you a letter in the mail just to let you know there are people out here who listen.
bro i was tripping through your blogs and read this,nice sound advice,i have several great books of knowledge id love to gift you with,the best zodiac Ive studied is the Celtic lunar zodiac,my good friend and lost brother MR.David lane turned me on to it it is very accurate,im a Leo aug. 12 1968 ,the Celtic formula is tree's im a hazel,im the salmon in the pool,i love and cherish knowledge wisdom is the greatest gift you can give.i am a craftsman ,a wanderer,if i was a druid i'd be a bard!the positive to being a hazel,they are perceptive,clever,have great reasoning power,we are the ones you want to be with in times of trouble,now the negative,im a perfectionist im argumentative and and way to curios for our own good,and my woman's favorite,i poses nervous energy that always needs channeled{ oh yes}im also moody and thrive on challenges!lol my kind hate false values ,there is a duality to my sign we make the best leaders and friends or the most bitter enemies ,we are the tacticians ,we are loyal to a fault,we think nothing of laying it all down for our clan and kin.we are nomadic ,always traveling,we have to understand,so we are the seekers of knowledge,and this sums it up brother/we can live in a place for years and never know anyone,we are prone to keep a low profile ,watchers ,im a hermit who is never alone,we constantly challenge the theories and opinions of others with our logic ,and skill of debate ,we Cherish truth,and are compelled to do what is best in the overall picture ,anyway thought you might want to know me better i am glad to have you as my friend and brother,if you let me know your birth date i will read your horoscope or through my bones for you i hope to hear from you soon...the more i read the more im coming to admire you,it is funny i was up by cohagan in 96 running food ex to our fellow farmers ,i know a lot of those boys ,good folks !later for now!be blessed and stay strong....winston
hello brother,i just figured out how to do this mikes computer wouldn't let me but mine got the job done,i hope this letter finds you safe.it's a cold nasty day way up here!i will check the blog every time i get home.if you need anything send me a line,i love your art bro!i make and read the runes ,we have much in common ,wisdom is everywhere! i hope to here from you soon!just let me know when you are ready for your next package,mike and merlie send there love but are having a very bad time financially and are having problems in there marriage .mike is back doing his thing and she is madder then Ive ever seen her, Ive been doing what i can for them,hell he is even lying to me ,witch i really don't understand!if you want to write my house the address is 811 truscott#12 miles city Montana 59301 i hope you have a great yule .if you need anything i'm here for you brotherhave a blessed day!
Hmmmm sounds like you learned your lesson - a hard lesson to learn 15 years taken off your life, or rather just given this experience of being in prison that I am sure you never will forget. I am 34. I served a small 18 month bid from 19-20 in a time when I had already lived in juvenile halls & lock-ups for 5 years prior. So I guess I too know what its like to be removed away from society and what led me to even find this website
I now work in the field of mental health and have dozens of clients who are coming out of the jail system in massachusetts. Its not an easy process re-entering back into society I'll have you know so not to sugar coat what you have in store. I realized as high as 70% of people who end up incarcerated have either a substance abuse or mental health related disorder. I pray you can find the right positive people to help you get your life back on track and if you have either of these issues as I do - stay stright and in treatment. And do not be fooled it is difficult to land decent paying employment & housing as a now convicted felon - (although its easier for men to find these things) believe it or not its true! women typically go work with children or in hospitals or as secrataries, etc. and when you aren't able to do this as a felon you are left with low paying jobs without a college education. I am grateful to be a graduate student working towards being a social worker. I am grateful for every breathe of freedom I take each day and my little apartment, my son, my job, my friends and my integrity and morals today. I am grateful I realized so long as I do not break the law, I will not ever end up incarcerated again. Educate yourself on the laws, learn them, respect them and follow them and you will be good when you get out here again too. It is not always easy out here, food is expensive, $5 a box of cereal alone! Heat is expensive, clothes are expensive, - virtually everything is expensive. So long as you can find employment and have family/friends to help you until you can get your own place, you should be good. I work as re-entry case manager and I know a ton about how to live in the free world as a convicted felon. If you have any questions feel free to ask. I wish you a very Merry Christmas as well and a Happy 2012!
RSS
Aunt Jenny
The kids loved the Grinch reference to the black banana. They're like, "You guys watched the Grinch? I didn't know he had a TV show..." Ha. No kids, just the 30 min cartoon.
Everyone's fine enough. Carter has epilepsy and Tourette Syndrome. Medication helps. I'm into Mindfulness more and more each day. Reading another book on it now. I've got Carter doing it to help calm his brain.
Ryker and Kemmer are fine. Peggy and Tanner both have the polychondritis stuff. Yuck. Oh well. Some of us get more rocks in our trick or treat bags than others.
Can't wait to see you again and do the ol' bro-bear hug! I've missed you, so keep on doing what you're doing. You're definitely stronger because of this and you'll make a difference when you're out.
Merry Christmas, dude. Thanks for the big laugh on Buddha. That was so funny! He'll open up a can!
Love ya man,
Donn HO
I just wanted to post a note to you after reading your blog and let you know that what you post does matter. PTSD is a tremendous problem that I think the military is unequipped to deal with right now. I thank you for your service and I know that you have the support of your fellow Marines. I know a couple of people with PTSD including my ex-husband who will not admit it and the husband of a friend. I have seen how it makes people react in situations and it can be scary. I also laughed at the post about your birthday because I did the same thing this year - I was 49 or so I thought, but no I am 48 - somehow it makes you feel a bit better to gain a year! I hope that 2012 is a good year for you and it sounds like you have the core strength to get through this as well as support of a great group of guys who respect you. Take care and I will be watching your posts and look forward to seeing how you are doing.
Leslie
I have been reading your posts and think you have a clear voice and things to say. Keep up the writing. I may drop you a letter in the mail just to let you know there are people out here who listen.
Lemania
Very nice blog.
Mom
Love From Mama
Hmmmm sounds like you learned your lesson - a hard lesson to learn 15 years taken off your life, or rather just given this experience of being in prison that I am sure you never will forget. I am 34. I served a small 18 month bid from 19-20 in a time when I had already lived in juvenile halls & lock-ups for 5 years prior. So I guess I too know what its like to be removed away from society and what led me to even find this website
I now work in the field of mental health and have dozens of clients who are coming out of the jail system in massachusetts. Its not an easy process re-entering back into society I'll have you know so not to sugar coat what you have in store. I realized as high as 70% of people who end up incarcerated have either a substance abuse or mental health related disorder. I pray you can find the right positive people to help you get your life back on track and if you have either of these issues as I do - stay stright and in treatment. And do not be fooled it is difficult to land decent paying employment & housing as a now convicted felon - (although its easier for men to find these things) believe it or not its true! women typically go work with children or in hospitals or as secrataries, etc. and when you aren't able to do this as a felon you are left with low paying jobs without a college education. I am grateful to be a graduate student working towards being a social worker. I am grateful for every breathe of freedom I take each day and my little apartment, my son, my job, my friends and my integrity and morals today. I am grateful I realized so long as I do not break the law, I will not ever end up incarcerated again. Educate yourself on the laws, learn them, respect them and follow them and you will be good when you get out here again too. It is not always easy out here, food is expensive, $5 a box of cereal alone! Heat is expensive, clothes are expensive, - virtually everything is expensive. So long as you can find employment and have family/friends to help you until you can get your own place, you should be good. I work as re-entry case manager and I know a ton about how to live in the free world as a convicted felon. If you have any questions feel free to ask. I wish you a very Merry Christmas as well and a Happy 2012!
Jody