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June 19, 2013 I just received 2 more response's to comments that were left on my blog site. I was pretty overjoyed to know that 2 more people are reading what I write. This first one is in response to Kat. Well I am somewhat judgemental. This truly is one of my many flaws. I am not proud of it and it is something I am working on changing. Thank you for responding to what I write. It makes me feel like someone is listening and cares about what I have to say. So many men and women in prison are shut off from the world and they feel like no-one gives a damn about them. Since I'm in prison, I don't understand or know much about having rights. In here, you have no rights. So I apologise for not understanding but I do see what you mean. You deserve the same rights to make medical and legal decisions for your loved ones. You are right and I need to stop living in the stone age and move into the 21st century but in here, moving forward, when life is stagnant, it's not easy. So please be patient with me and give me a little time, I will succeed. I did not know that gays could marry in Europe and this is new to me because I have my friends (who are my family) in Italy, and my friend whom I love and adore in the Netherlands, Sonja. But they never told me that. So this is news to me. I try to be optimistic but it's not easy. A lot of my friends have bailed on me just this year. They don't understand being in here and I know it's not easy being a friend to someone in here. I'm not as lucky as I might have made you believe. Slowly but surely, I am being abandoned to rot in here until I die. Now maybe I deserve that for taking a life, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. I haven't heard from Sonja since Christmas. I love this girl. She is my friend and nothing more. We are just 2 human beings who care about each other. But not 1 word from her this year. It hurts. If you want to e-mail her for me, I'd appreciate it. I miss her and I'm just hoping nothing is wrong and nothing bad happened. You tell her Rob misses you and needs to know she's okay. If you don't want to, that's fine, but I have no way of doing it myself. Her e-mail is: sonjalouise@gmail.com

Kat, I have met so many lonely men in prison, men who have been here for decades and have been left to rot, forgotten by all they loved. So I know what my future holds, and frankly, it's pretty freakin' scary. I will never give up on my daughter. The photo of her with me on my blog profile, she was only 7 in it, and that's the only time I have ever met her but she's mine and I love her so much and I worry every day. She knows my brother made a facebook page for me and I just wish she would reach out to me on it. My brother monitors the page but so far nothing :( but I try not to give up hope. Well Kat, I thank you once again for your comments and if there is anything you want to know, or a subject you want to hear about or discuss, please feel free to let me know. I ask you and anyone else who reads this, please don't judge me on my past or my flaws, give me a chance and judge me on who I am not. I'll be watching Italy vs. Japan in the world cup qualifying tonight, go Italy. Thank you for reading. Ciao.