Nov. 24, 2013

What Then?

by Daniel Baker (author's profile)

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Happy Halloween

Like my costume?

[drawing of a boy in a superhero outfit]

LATER

What Then?

Sometimes I sit for hours in silence with so much to say and completely unable to write or draw anything to say it how it should be expressed... Especially when it comes to conveying my personal feelings and fears...

I am an educated man, well educated. I am highly skilled with my hands, and think fast & well on my feet, but am dumb as they come, because I don't know how to apply my skills + traits to my personal life... I pay so much attention to the finest of details, but the details in my personal life are often overlooked...

One day I will reach the end of my incarceration - what then? Where will I go? Where will I work? How will I eat? Will anyone care? That's what I worry about most these days. Some convicts worry to the extent that the fear drives them to commit more crimes so they won't be released or to violate parole so they can return to prison - here even the chaos is controlled to an extent.

Not Again?

It's October again... my birthday again... will it happen again? Every year it seems that no one in my life remembers that on Oct. 27 I celebrate another year of not dying. You'd think that with such an accomplishment of staying alive they'd remember me...

Ya know, I only received a few well wishes from strangers over the past few years, and the same on holidays.

I got absolutely NO cards or such in the past 4 years for any occasion except for 2 strangers - who found me here and I suppose thought I needed cheering up, "of course my favorite was the little Santa in a swimsuit card" and paper tree decoration Santa.

I got a ha-lair-ee-ous card for my b-day in '08. On the cover is an old man who says "So you're a year old, look on the bright side" then on the inside it says "Gimme a minute, I'm thinking of something." Came from my sis...

I'm Just Saying
10-13-13

It's time for me to let loose my opinions and views on things and current news.

Of course, first on the list is this government shutdown everyone is crying about. What, you didn't see it coming? You voted each and every House Rep into their official position, stood by as these employees of the people gave themselves raise after raise in pay right from your pocket while doing less and less in the interest of YOU who pay them. So why haven't all of you made yourself heard? You gave the government its power, fire them and take some back. Let them know when elections are held what you expect.

I'm not saying like "civil war" type shit. Just speak up + be heard!

As soon as the majority learns to say (I, me, mine + my) rather than (you, yours, them, their + they're), accepting ownership for his or her own part of how the world is, we may start to get somewhere with solving all the problems no one seems to want to accept any responsibility for.

New Stupidity

The geniuses who rule the roost here have decided that incoming mail can no longer have cutesy stickers, coloring, or address labels on or in them. Apparently a mastermind has created drug based inks to print things with and even crayons so their kids can create intoxicating works of art, and the D.O.C. somehow stumbled onto the master plan and foiled it.

Really!

You can't make this up!

They're idiots...

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SunnyBear Posted 10 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 10 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
i write you all the time and 99% get returned because it is a factory printed envelope.. or something stupid happened.. so why go off on me about it.. i tried for almost 2 months to get your b-day to you.. the bue envelope it is in now is my finaly attempt to send it.. yeah i know how hard it is on the inside.. you forget i know people who have been in mych worse situations and know a guy right now who has been gone thru the hell you are and was/is INNONCENT and proved so by a lie detector test and the witness recanted her story.. but only after he served the time. now as far as my love life goes you can like them or not.. but theatening bodily harm or anything else is going too far.. i want to you like them not try and run my life.. it is still my life to live.. and if i so choose i can do as i please as i am an adult and over 21.. i know i have made some big mistakes in the past.. but let old dogs lie and have faith in me.. if nothing but for mom because she approved of this guy a long time ago.. she knew him a long time ago when i was writing, which i have started to do again i am looking to be published... i want to have my name on a book and be famous.. i want nothing for the best for you.. but until i get money other then my check coming in i could do it.. i want to pay for your pc.. but i cant yet.. i want to be able to afford to go get the money orders and send then in and keep doing it til you didnt need anything.. not a guilt trip just a reality.. why is it when i talk about the reality of the situation we are in you yell i am throwing you a guilt trip.. it isnt.. i want. to impress uon you how bad things are... and crys.. as much as i love her.. she doesnt help.. she wants me to pack the car with clothes, dottie, and just leave.. Fudge that.. i worked too hard for what little i have.. and if it isnt mineit is moms.. her last idea was to rent a house together and share all the bills down the middle.. i would be getting screwed.. she , turtle, bubba, and quint linve there and then me.. so i would be stay broke to help pay there bills... that isnt right.. it should be split equally.. 4 of them 1 of me.. so we have alot to talk about before i think of moving there.. besides saving money is hard to do when your bills eat everything you bring in.. now.. i am trying to hatch schemes here and there to get moved of at least come for a visit.. the visit would be to scout out apts and fill out apts for section 8 and disability apts.i have been calling but they want you to show up in person.. stupid i know but what can i do..i just want a nice quiet place for me and dotti to live where noone bothers us and we can be ourselves... when i eventually get a place i will be looking into getting a guard dog since i will be living alone for a time.. not sure what yet but will keep my options open.. now.. i have to go.. it is getting late and dottie wants her fishes before bed..

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Sunning Bear

Daniel Baker Posted 10 years, 9 months ago.   Favorite
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