"When we love someone, we're held hostage we love that person, then we, too are lost."

Dear Readers,
Happy St. Patrick's Day!
Well, I've been at a loss as to anything since. For the middle of March in North Carolina, the weather had freezing rain & light snow today! Crazy! Turned off the heat in the units so it's freezing & cold weather. At least the daffodils are in bloom.
I think my mail is being fucked with. [cut off] received an empty envelope from my new friend [cut off] know she didn't send an empty envelope. The [cut off] Will in Ohio two weeks ago & he still hasn't [cut off] there's my missing 'Vanity Fair' for this month mailroom twice recently & it appears they're more.
I finally have a "callout" (appointment) tonight. I went to sick call 2 months ago. Ridiculous lump on my chest has at least quadrupled in size. I think it's an infection, but is it really wise to see if some'es chest go & get worse? Couldn't the [cut off] between us are"so-so" at best. I feel certain [cut off] & that he'd dump me in a heartbeat if someone messed around. The one good thing - which absolutely [cutoff] I can kiss him on the mouth. You have no idea how much I miss that after going without it for years.
A new gang came in the unit recently, a [cut off] What a fucking creep! HE's semi-interested in [cut off] had the nerve to suggest I buy him things & [cut off] & his named & number in case I wanted to have you, this guy is no prize in the looks department. He had the nerve to approach me that way. I gave him a telling off & later he apologized.
However! When he apologized he started [cut off] work & how I should read it. (In USP's & gang show your case paperwork so they can find out if you're a child molestor, etc.) I promptly told him I knew about his paperwork. Shortly thereafter he was [cut off] hall with his paperwork & insisted that I check [cut off] kept walking. So, last week he came to my cell and took his paperwork again & insisted that [cut off] off & told him I wasn't "institutionalized" & that [cut off] personality & that he need ed to leave. What a [cut off]