"You don't know America unless you've been to jail in America."—Barbara Rose

05-5-14

Dear Readers,
¡Filing Cinco de Mayo!

It's been a stressful and busy few weeks. I hope all of you are well and happy.

Well, on one front, a new person has come to Butner who has quickly become a close friend. This person, whom I'll call Raven, is technically a guy. But as with gays, I'll refer to "her" as "she." Because Raven is a pre-op transsexual. But what's weird (to me) is that Raven isn't actually interested in men; she likes women! She's a lesbian!

Even further, Raven is a former Aryan bad ass who used to rob banks! She's in four books and was connected with the Oklahoma City bomber, Timothy McVingh, although she never knew him.

Raven was specifically sent here from another prison as she was told that there's a program here for transsexuals. When she got here, the staff knew nothing and was completely unprepared. Oops! No program here. SHe's been getting the runaround since she got here bu, after speaking with the ACA (prison accreditation) people last week, hopefully things will improve.

Raven is also Wiccan (and serving a life sentence!), so I'm not alone anymore in trying to keep our services going. Two other Pagans have arrived since then (one today), and I'm hoping our group will prosper.

On another front, I've been extremely upset and stressed for the past three weeks. My former fling, Cowboy, whom I kicked to the curb, has been making my life pure hell. This guy already ripped me off with stamps and other items he got from me. He won—great. Well, apparently that wasn't enough. He then got someone to dig up some things about me which I would prefer to keep to myself, and then got this guy to come up with some paperwork on me to show around.

Well, someone I know became the middleman for this paperwork and handed it to me instead of Cowboy. I lucked out greatly in this respect, although it greatly damaged my relationship with the middleman. However, the rumors are all over the place about me, and I'm just waiting for this previous guy to hand Cowboy this paperwork himself and then I'll be over.

I complained to the investigative staff about this harassment for weeks, but they've done NOTHING.

Further, this past Friday, Cowboy came to my cell to "talk" and I had to forcibly shove him out the door repeatedly, but he just kept coming back. He had been sniffing glue and was completely high. Finally, my yelling drew the CO, and he came and got Cowboy out of my cell. He then went around saying he'd slapped me during all this.

Now, I'm really worried about what he's gonna do next. I know this guy will eventually end up in the Hole, but not soon enough. And I don't want to be a victim beforehand or end up there with him. I've tried all kinds of protection spells and prayers, and I just hope something works. Wish me luck.

Love and blessings,
Kelly