"The only straight I am is straight up bitch."
—Glee

06-02-14

Dear Readers,

Howdy! Yes, I've been very bad about writing. I've been both very busy and very stressed.

From my last writing, I believe I mentioned problems with "Cowboy". Well, that quickly progressed to problems with my cellie, Paul. There is a guy here who called me to my cell a few months ago to fight—all 'cause I told him that I didn't want to talk to him and didn't want to be around him.

Well, this guy, Will, is a total closet case and obviously mental, but my cellie Paul remained friends with him, even though he was aware of this guy's mental issues. Plus, Will is a predator and is currently fixated on Paul. Despite Paul's knowledge of the situation, he kept having this guy over to our cell. I was fucking livid. So, we had it out one day and I told Paul that he needed to move out if he was going to keep having that guy over. Paul refused.

Quick background: Paul had originally been in this cell with another guy, but they both wen to the Hole and I moved in by myself. When Paul got out, he was in the hallway. He had arranged to move in with another guy, but this guy found out that Paul was in here for screwing a 13-year-old girl and said no. Paul then literally came crying to me and asked to move in, and I said okay.

According to prison etiquette, if you're in the cell first and you and your cellie have a problem, then the other guy needs to move out.

Okay, so Paul has refused to move and we aren't speaking. Meanwhile, I had been seeing this guy "Boots", which I think I've previously mentioned (past tense). So, Paul has decided on all-out war and has been dropping numerous notes on me (i.e. reporting) that I've been "having sex" in the cell. He's also gone to the COs on duty several times. I was last told that there were several notes in different writing and that some were even dropped in the unit next door—where no one should know about what happens here. Obviously, Will is helping him and he's got others involved.

I've been called to the Lieutenant's office about this and the CO's office a few times, and last Tues. both Boots and I were called to the CO's office. Paul is trying extra hard to get me thrown in the Hole and, since he and will are rarely apart, it's obvious that he plans on moving Will in the cell. Paul's even taken to shaving his legs now. Could you be more obvious?

So, I've been going through all this crap for the past month and am extremely stressed out. This has helped to fuck up my relationship with Boots, who can't be seen in my cell at all now. Of course, Boots's huge lack of maturity has also fucked up our relationship, but that may be explained another time.

I've had a really crappy day. According to my Buddhist calendar, it's a "very unfavorable day." Truer words haven't been spoken. By the way, this calendar is put out by Liberation Prison Project which is a Buddhist support group for prisoners. They can be contacted at www.liberationprisonproject.org. Please check them out!

Love and blessings,
Kelly