The Prison Chronicles
The Pleasant Breakdown IV

Almost instantly after getting locked up, the mind becomes selfish and, if it's your first time, all hell breaks loose in your head.

The mind goes in a terrible and drastic state of confusion. Not only is the thought process about self-tainted, but now it becomes a game of survival, where every man is for himself.

Where you were once the sharing and loving type prior to your incarceration. Now you are this out of my way, my bunk, my this, my that type of person and you will fight over just about anything you believe belongs to you or should belong to you or you have a right to. Which, in the end, none of what you claim actually belongs to you because when the state employees decide they don't want him to have it anymore, guess what? There is nothing he can or will do about it.

Besides, this behavior will not make a positive impact on the decision making of his release.

Spider felt that he should control the TV remote and anything someone else decided they wanted to change the TV, that mean old spider would throw a fit like a mad man. He would get to grabbing on his head like it was about to explode and would stare a guy down and would actually be ready to fight.

That old spider was the type of guy who had problems and did not know he had them. Each time he would go before the parole board, concerned about the wrong issues, like the TV remote, he gets shot down but still wonders why the parole board shoots him down.

A good percentage of guys in prison are like spider. They tilt their concentration and thoughts to the left when they should be tilting to the right of things, not prison shit, the temporary stuff, thereby becoming power-puff-like girls instead of men on a mission to get home to their loved ones. A man's thought patterns while in prison should never be the same going out. An important level of growth must always be achieved.