Nov. 3, 2011

My Dearest Destiny

by William Goehler (author's profile)

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Jn. 1623
23 Oct. 11

My Dearest Destiny,

How are you, sweetie? I hear that you're taking a time out in order to put things in proper perspective. It makes proud of you that you took the initiative to do this.

I don't know what type of program you're in—or what type of opportunities are offered there. But you know that my prayers are with you, right? They are! Happily I pray thankful prayers for you. Your life experiences are making you a strong person for some reason, in spite of the emotional pains involved.

You know, when I pray for loved ones who are going through their personal ordeals, I don't simply invoke the higher powers to watch over you and let it go at that. But I see solutions to your problems and feel inclined to offer suggestions. You see, I see prayer as a precursor to becoming more involved. And in this case, I'm proud that you're at a place in your life to take inventory of your blessings and opportunities to make the most of and therein redevelop your attitude of gratitude. That attitude that makes all the painful experiences pale in comparison.

Okay, so here's my suggestion, Honey: pen and paper in hand. Make a positive-negative list of your life. Trust me, I'm sure you've definitely got more positives to be grateful for than negatives. Yet if the negatives list seems more important to you, then there's a more comprehensive list you can write out listing all the events in your life giving you grief. This is an exercise of catharsis which will help you come to terms with your past once you dare expose it to paper.

It is a scary exercise of catharsis—to dare to revisit painful memories which we naturally try to avoid and forget. But on paper, they really don't seem so terrifying. Then you can be free of them—strong from the experiences.

You don't have to be so analytical about everything though, Destiny Joy. It's easy enough to let bygones be bygones and simply proceed in your life carefree and joyfully excited about this life of yours. With all the wonderful experiences.

What, you say. Drugs and alcohol problems tend to make even more problem? D'oh! Yup, that "experience" ruins many lives. Aren't you as grateful as can be that that experience is out of the way and you can get on with your life?

So what are your plans now? Do you have a list of short-term and long-term goals spelled out? Care to share? I always look forward to see what you have to say when you write me. I wish you all the best, Destiny.

Be blessed.

[baby picture with William.]

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Destinysjoyous Posted 1 month, 2 weeks ago. ✓ Mailed 2 weeks, 3 days ago   Favorite
Hey Dad, well first of all I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry for going MIA on you like I did but someone got off with my phone and of course I couldn't get back onto any of the accounts that I had on it. Believe me, I've definitely tried. Also, I just got done reading this old letter that you wrote to me and oh my goodness! My heart is so full right now, I can't believe what a dark fucking cloud I have been for most of my life. Its a lot different now. I wake up everyday with an unbelievably grateful heart for all of my blessings.
But hey other than that though, guess what I went and done did!??! I LEFT CALIFORNIA!! Drove all the way to this little town that sits right on the border of Minisota and North Dakota. In a 2011 jeep Wrangler that some fucking old ass creep of a fucking rapist prick gave me the keys too after he felt bad for taking advantage of me. So of course I took off with it! Its not like I had any of it planned out or anything. It was a super spontaneous, spur of the moment kind of thing. I went with Smokey's cousin, Timmy Crownover. (Speaking of smokey..... We gotta have a conversation about that one some day for sure...) But hey I'm so glad I did though cause now I'm clean, and I'm even completely over my withdrawals and everything. I've been out here for like a month now, staying at Timmy's brothers house. Spending most of my time babysitting his brothers kids lately.
Anyways so since I've been clean I feel like a completely different person. I feel like my mind/body/ and my soul while I was using for all those years was almost kind of stuck on autopilot. Now all of the sudden I've got SO much on my mind constantly, and my awareness is crazy it's like I'm all the sudden able to see things for what they really are. It's kind of hard to explain it completely without sounding borderline insane lol but I'll tell you more about all that later. Now that my mind feels sharper and not as weak I've been thinking a lot about you and all the things that we have talked about, and I've been getting this overwhelming urge to get a hold of you. Do you remember how the first few times that you had people reach out to me for you I kept saying that I felt intimidated and whatever else and that's why it was hard for me to write you? Well it's crazy what a sober mind can do because it couldn't be more different. After realizing just how much more clear my mind is working, my level of confidence in myself as well as knowing a lot more about you, has me not only intrigued but excited to see where it goes from here, like where it could end up taking us.
So, I guess with that being said, to respond to a comment that you had made in one of the letters that you had wrote to me while I was staying over at Kevin Sutton's.... I am more than ready to play this game with you. I'll probably end up writing you again before you write back but if not I just at least wanted to fill you in on everything and let you know what's been going on.

Erne2017 Posted 4 weeks ago. ✓ Mailed 2 weeks, 3 days ago   Favorite
Here is what I wrote to you on BtB to reach Desting to connect up.

5Jan2023 Hi William: Thank you for the phone calls. I am glad to see Destiny has written on BtB site to let you know she is okay and no long MIA.I am writing as you asked in hopes that Destiny reads my message to bridge you two together. Destiny your Dad wants very much to speak on the phone with you. He was in such joy to received your message you wrote on this particular posted site 2 weeks 2 days ago. which would be approximately 19 December 2022. It takes a period of time for the sit to send him a hard copy of what you wrote to William as he cannot go on this site. Can you possible call me so I can help you with your Getting Out information now the your cell phone is MIA. He has gotten in touch me so many times asking me to help him connect up with you. I sometimes go to the fb sites you have and then have to tell him you have not posted anything for quite a long while. You have at least 3-4 fb sites. I am 78 yrs old so I am not in to using fb much. I only have one cousin I enjoy her posts because she only posts very positive things that uplife the heart. I you need any help from me pleaase call me at 727-518-5097 cell or house line 727-441-4118. I recently sent you a non-e email on google. Willian said he doesn't know what google is. He is going great and using his art skills everyday in the education department. I do hope you get this message thru me writing to William. You can write me too thru writing to William to get a message on how we can connect up. I am so pleased that you are conquering you own case. Willaim was soooooo very happy to receive your posted message. Thank you Happyiest New Year and enjoy life. Much love, Ernestyna in Florida

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