Real Talk Always 11-5-18

Broken Down: (shabby)

Being ill-kept and showing signs of wear and tear. Being abandoned, wrecked and shameful...

(This is where you're at)

Because truth is the reason behind any man abusing a woman is to break her. And force her into the belief that without him you're nothing. No one will ever want you, let alone love you. And without him you can't live. That you're nothing, and worthless to gain the mental power over you.

You're so torn into pieces that to repair you, would cause for me to break you completely, so that you can start over fresh and new. Because no form of therapy will ever replace those lost sleeps from nightmares of him stripping away your beauty and humanity with every blow. Force throw up sits stuck in your throat as his hands grip tighter, and it seems like it'll never end. (But it did!) At that point your new life began...

So to start over you must completely come to terms with the abuse, and understand that it wasn't your fault, and everything said about you wasn't true. After that you have to replace those thoughts, feelings, and memories with new positive desires...

You have to find within yourself those qualities that you love about yourself and start rebuilding "you" from there. Now with those qualities, or looks you don't like take one at a time and ask yourself why you don't like it. Weigh the pros and cons to find out if it's something you don't like about yourself, or was it something he didn't like.

Power: (weakness)

The right or prerogative of determining, ruling, or governing. Command, control and domination...

You should never give anybody power over you. Every once in awhile you let the wrong person into your mind and heart. But you have to keep the ability to control your power.

Power comes from one's ability to control their emotions. For emotions is humans' first and most dangerous weakness. A weakness that if put into the wrong hands can be used to control and command one's loyalty and respect by force...

Trust: (Truth)

Complete assurance and certitude regarding the character, ability, strength or truth of someone or something. Confidence, dependence, faith, hope and reliance.

We together have to commit to this in order for us to work. If I'm going to rebuild the broken house "you". I need to learn your foundation. You have to guide me in the right direction. You gotta open up your locked doors so that your mind can receive proper "nutritious worth".

I know they've all said this to you before, but you can't put me in the same mix with them other dudes. Because I'm my own man. See, they said everything you wanted to hear so they could get you in bed, then abuse you mentally, emotionally and some physically. I'm asking you to let me love your mind, heart and soul. Anything after that, it is what it is...

For now I drop this pen!

Real Talk Always

Ya boy
Leo

You gotta respond
Scorpio

Close eyes miss opportunity. Shut ears can't hear truth. Close mouth can't ask for help...

Worthy: (Deserving)

Having worth or merit. Admirable, commendable, praisable, praiseworthy, precious, desirable and divine...

These are all things I want you to feel about yourself. Because they are all true if YOU believe it. Beauty is design to be seen. My eyes are design to see the beauty within you. Prison is design to stop my eyes from seeing you. It's design to have my heart confined, lost and intertwined without sight of your beauty in front of me. But the beauty I seek is (unique) and nothing can stand in my way of seeing you. Your entire beauty is so bright my eyes are mesmerize, lost in an ongoing daze. At first I thought this was lust a normal stage. But the feelings got deeper, and my heart became a book for which I turn the page. You seem so close at times, but so far away. Just because I'm in a situation that has me confined, you do know love lives within these walls. Of course I've gotta work harder than those who are free. But to be connected to your heart, no one will work harder than me. Honest, loyal, outspoken, funny, sincere, protective, secure of self, confident, and smart, these things you should know about me. But all I know of you is the dreams I have of us together. I wanna know you as a woman. I wanna know what's in your heart. I wanna know what makes you CRY, and what makes you SMILE. I wanna know your entire past. I wanna connect with you, the complete you. I believe sex isn't everything. I believe once you learn to cherish a woman mind & soul mentally and emotionally, the physical is an added plus. To you I express these true words, because when I look at you I don't see sex, or an object that can be used and abused. I see a woman I could cherish, adore, connect with, and grow a bond with. So I say to you: (The better my treasure, the wetter your pleasure). This is what's inside my heart. I know you can't say much, but I ask of you to respond to my letters, and at least tell me one thing you feel about me. Between us is how this is kept. Because your happiness is all I want, and it's heart felt...

(ABOUT YOU)

How long were you together before the abuse started?

We gone start there, and work from this question.