MCCN: Personal Journal:

5/24/20: 'Shelter in place,' better known as lockdown to us inside. (?) It seems that those of us inside are handling this with more grace and less angst than those in the outside world. Most of us on the inside are veterans of more than a few lockdowns and having those previous experiences we become adept at passing time. Concentrating on positive parts of life (yes) even prisoners find positive situations. Keeping a journal is always available, good for venting and useful in increasing understanding of oneself. Write your family, your loved ones- they want to hear from you, want to know you are alright. Never underestimate how much you mean to them, and now is a good time to let them know how much they mean to you. I got two comments from the Friday's blogs. I want to thank SONA186 for her comments. It always makes me feel good that someone has read my poetry and enjoyed them- most of them are love poems, it's easy to write love poems when you are in love :) ... I would like to thank Mtroy for transcription and caring enough to give your time to others. I would also like to thank my Jeannie for all the work she's put in on me over the years (three smiley faces and three hearts). Weekends seem long even though every day is the same as the day before. Yesterday I walked in the afternoon. The day before, 'Friday,' I walked in the morning. Both days were warm and I walked and talked with the same people :). Today and tomorrow we have no yard so maybe some dayroom, maybe some painting. I always look forward to a new day. Although there are never any changes, I always look forward to looking for them (image of a heart and a smiley face). Now I'm just repeating myself.

5/25/20: Today is Monday- I'm thinking it's Sunday. Can I do all my yesterdays over again?

Tuesday 5/26/20: I got a celly yesterday- wasn't looking for that. See howling it lasts- he seems to be alright but I was looking to be single celled for a while. I knew I was getting a celly but a few weeks would have been nice. Just under one hundred yesterday and looking for it to be over a hundred the rest of the week, 107 on Thursday :). It's not so bad in the cell as long as the fans are on. I have a (?) for 10:30 to see the R.N. to get the dressing changed on my left shoulder. She just wants to look at it, 'measure it,' to see if it's healing. I think it is. I change it everyday and have to have people put a new bandaid on it as I can't even see it and they tell me it's getting smaller. No yard today, no dayroom until tonight. Tomorrow- yard and dayroom at the same time. I love to make a call so I do dayroom first (image of a heart). Rumours they said visiting will resume on the first of July- six feet distancing by appointments only- I think two hours per visit, better than nothing. They have cases of the virus in every prison but this one they are now moving people around, transferring to other prisons. I know we got two people in last night. They say it's to make room for distancing- sounds to me like they want to spread it around to all prisons :) just saying.

Thursday 5/28/20: Almost the end of May- it's been over a 100 degrees here all week and looks like more of the same for the rest of the month. Not having any cool off days so the cell doesn't cool off until late in the night. It doesn't bother me as much as it used to since I dropped all that weight but my new celly is feeling it. Sorry I wasn't able to connect with you my love (image of a heart). I'll write you soon. Its already starting to warm up and it's note even six o'clock yet :). I had a blood draw yesterday- the R.N. took about 9 (?), at least a pint. I think this one is for Rheumatology or Pulmonary- I'm not sure they have me down to see a bunch of tele-med doctors and are starting lockup in June. I'm going to close this off and get it in the mail today. Thank everyone for their time and stay (?).