May 30, 2011

Reaching Out

From "The Fall of A Urban Soldier" by Antonio Perry (author's profile)



"Reaching Out"

Physically I'm confine in a state of torment and destruction, called confinement. I'm doing a sentence of imprisonment for the remainder of my physical and mental life. So for 8 years I have been showing no impassive ways, for the fact those of that walk around not based on reasons, evidence, or knowledge, will only try to take my forbearing as a state of being weak. Only dreams in a way, give me some freedom from this place. I long for, for the life of thousand sounds and colours striking my senses daily again and thousand facts coming to my consciousness to stimulate the activity of my brain. I have failed like majority of some who did not have sufficient strength to resist the temptation surrounding them or to control a passion that momentarily carried them away, but for my situation for life. Is there really people out there that can understand the effect loneliness can have. A properly so called loyal friend to my opinion, is one who listen, provide support when needed, to inspire with courage and hope... Is there still some that exist.

If so, where are they?


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Duchess Posted 11 years, 6 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 6 months ago   Favorite
Just thought you would like to know that someone is out there reading your words and listening to what you have to say. Keep your chin up, I can't imagine what it must be like living behind bars, but I do know what loneliness is like and I also know that it passes with time. To be able to be comfortable and be alone with yourself is a true challenge for anyone, but just remember that you are never really alone! Hope you are well,

pitroba Posted 10 years, 5 months ago. ✓ Mailed 10 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Hello Antonio. I cannot even imagine how hard is it to be where you are and the loneliness you are feeling. I'm writing you since I saw you haven't post anything for more than a year and want to encourage you not to loose trust on this blog which can really help you evading that crude reality you are facing. I see that there are many in your same situation who are writing on this website and defeating the loneliness by communicating with people outside the prison. The real friends you are talking about exist and they can be found here. We are more than glad to be your friends.
Don't lose your hope.
Wish you the best.


Kayluhh77 Posted 10 years, 3 months ago. ✓ Mailed 10 years, 2 months ago   Favorite
Thanks for writing! I worked on the transcription for your post.

Rita Posted 7 years, 2 months ago. ✓ Mailed 7 years, 2 months ago   Favorite
hi Antonio,

I am a person who read your 'reaching out'today,Monday 4th January.Today mail should be deliverd to you,but most probably there will be a delay handling it to you?We hope for the best!
Since many years I write with American inmates;pen pals.:)
Maybe in the future you can put your address on the blog so people can write you personaly?
First of all I like to wish you a New Year of inspiration,opening doors(such as writing with somebody),friendship, warmth and inner peace.Working at ourselves makes you free inside,Antonio.The mental freedom is possible.
I don't know lonelyness such as you experience... but I reach out to people who go trough this ordeal.
I am not an american as you've seen probably already.I am a woman, of 67 and feeling young inside.I've a young mind I guess.
Belgian of birth and as a family(I am divorced now, but my ex and me are still befriended)we lived 7 yrs in the States:3 in Utah and 4 in Ohio. Later on we lived almost 6 yrs in Argentina(Buenos Aires)We have two daughters, Elke and leslie.
Only Leslie was born in Utah;also both studied 4 yrs in Ohio.
Leslie and her husband lately lived in CA and decided to stay in San Diego. :)They have kids: Adric and Claire, 7 and 5yrs.
Elke and her husband expect another child for the 28th of January!Their girl Lynn will be two on the 21st of that same month.
I am a busy woman,doing lots of activities,Antonio.
I have painted a lot(being a creating person!),I play the piano, I write on internet and love so many things more!
My main purpose here is to know what you have in store? I'd like so very much you open up and tell me what your dreams and goals are...:)))
Never losse hope nor courage and I will help you maintaining that part of your life.All happens for a reason;I just didn't find you just like that.In my opinion there are no coincidences.:)
May this ne 2016 be the beginning of our friendship?I surely hope so!!
kind greetings from Rita

Antonio Perry Posted 7 years, 1 month ago.   Favorite
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