Daily Journal
October 15-18, 2012

Monday October 15, 2012 6:28am: Here we are - another day on Florida's Death Row, unfortunate enough to wake up again. I've come to accept that I'm not lucky enough to die young. Nope, I've got to live long and suffer dearly. Oh well! Could be worse. A guy down the hall, he's paralyzed. We can always find others less fortunate than us. I'll just be glad when this life is over. I've got to figure out what I'm going to do today. Which makes me go back to what I was just thinking about, and that is, I'm not living. I'm existing hour to hour, day to day, week to week, month to month, year to year. Same crap day in and day out. I need to shave, I've already made the bunk and cleaned my cell. And right now I'm listening to music, a group called Jackyl, a song Deeper in Darkness. I need to get out of this cell. I haven't been outside in two months. I think that's affecting me mentally. Plus Ferguson's execution tomorrow. I didn't know him, but I know where he is and what's going on - and I don't know why I think about it, when other guys don't, or maybe they do and just don't say anything. Who knows.
6:57am: I just seen on Capital Update that Ferguson got a two day stay. So he's now scheduled for Oct 18.
8:54am: Sgt Lee just picked up legal mail. I got that motion for an extension filed. I also asked if he could get this heightened security lifted and he said he would talk to Captain Norman about getting me off of it. Hope that happens.

Tuesday October 16, 2012 5:34am: Just finished eating breakfast. Yesterday I spent most of the day working on a card. I finally finished it. Then I did some push ups. Showered, came back, laid down and went to sleep. Woke up about midnight to find mail on my door, took it off and went back to sleep. I woke up at 3:21am. Washed up, made my bunk, cleaned the cell, watched some news and read some of the blog comments. I'll write them up later today. I have a couple of letters to write. May start another card.
8:23pm: Well, today I wrote up several comments, wrote two blogs and finished up a card and started another one. All of my cards now, I'm putting my Between the Bars logo on the back. Right now I'm listening to some music. I was going to watch some of the debate, but I'm considering going to bed right now. I'm really tired.

Wednesday October 17, 2012 5:24pm: Here we are, another day on Florida's Death Row. I'll do some writing this morning, some painting later. I received a few comments last night, I want to respond to them. I also got in a couple of letters, so I'll write them.
6:31pm: I spent the day writing and doing some artwork. Painting. Wrote a couple of letters. I'm waiting on the shower right now. I'll watch Survivor tonight and then go to sleep. There's only 4 guys on D.C. right now. Which is good, I'd rather no one be over there. There's no need for it here. This place is laid back, guys don't cause trouble, that's why I was saying all along that Cell P-4102 was a waste of tax dollars by that knuckle headed idiot Reddish who built it just to screw with me. Moron wasting FDOC money. And on top of that he's had inmates assaulted and even murdered. Can't say, oh, I didn't know. It's his M.F. job to know!! He's responsible for that damn murder and all these damn assaults. Criminal SOB is what he is!

Thursday October 18, 2012 6:56am: I'm up... that's about all that can be said. I got up at 5am, cleaned the cell, made the bunk, ate breakfast, washed some clothes, which are drying right now. I see another one of them brain dead moron Muslim terrorists has tried to blow something else up in New York. This is a sick ass world. Guess I'll do some painting this morning, then some writing. Ferguson's scheduled to die in 12 hours. I'll be keeping my eyes on the news to see what, if anything, happens there.
5:13pm: I wrote a couple of letters today. Mainly been working on this card. I bet I've got ten hours in it. I don't really like doing artwork. I like to sit and doodle, but when it comes to doing serious work like this, it's not fun. Cartoons are okay, but what I'm doing here is just work. I'm even doing the back of the cards, putting bob wire and adding my logo and poetry. It looks really sharp. I think people will like it. It gives me something to do since I'm not filing grievances. I'm going to do some more painting until 6:30 then watch the world news, a little bit of TV. Wait for mail and then go to sleep. Ferguson got a stay until October 23rd.