Daily Journal
November 13-15, 2012

Tuesday November 13, 2012 6:43am: Just watching CBS News, already made my bunk. I've still got to wipe the floor down and clean the sink, toilet, bars and walls. Everyone will probably go to the yard this morning. Wish I could go out and get out of this cage for awhile. Right now I'm going to listen to some music and clean.
10:33am: I just wrote this poem.

"My Existence"
Minutes tick-
Days go by,
And I'm left here
In this cage to die.

It kills my spirit...
It destroys my heart.
It literally rips
My being apart.

For this cage
Is mental destruction.
Human Rights cover up,
Political corruption.

Devastation like -
You will never know.
That's my existence
Here on death row.

Ronald W. Clark Jr.
That poem pretty much tells how I feel and sums up my existence in this cage here on death row. I've cleaned and scrubbed everything. Just been listening to music, passing time, trying to figure out what to do next. My cell light's been broke for over a week, and they still haven't even come down to see what's wrong with it.
11:38am: Just finished eat. I had chilli, I took a canteen chili and put the chili on the tray with it. Came out pretty good. I need to find something to do to pass some time. I was standing up at the cell bars looking out the window that's located about 10 foot outside my cell on the other side of two sets of bars. I can see inmates from population walking around. I can see the trees on the compound. The sun shining - it looks like a really nice day. I'd love to be out there riding a motorcycle. Damn, 23 years in here as of February 7, and I just sit here day in and day out. It's a hell of an existence. Hard to imagine a more difficult existence than this. China and some of your other countries who kill their citizens at least have the compassion to get it done and over with. Not house someone in a cage two and three decades before killing them. Two and three decades threatening an individual with death. I just think if you're hell bent on killing people - then kill them! But you don't threaten and intimidate people day in and day out for decades before killing them. There's nothing humane about that type of crap!

Wednesday November 14, 2012: 5:48am: I've been up since 4am. Watched ABC News then CBS News. Main stories is about Petraeus having sex with that woman. That's a mess. Now the whole world knows she was getting - by Petraeus. Her husband is probably really happy to know about that. I'd have been packing her bags. If she wants to have sex with other men - that's fine, but get out of the marriage first. Got to figure out what I'm going to do today.

Thursday November 15, 2012 6:19am: Well, I didn't accomplish anything yesterday. The guys went to recreation yesterday afternoon, and two officers came in and just destroyed three cells. That's not cell searching when they just destroy property. Last night I received a letter from my Dad, so I need to write him, and a friend who makes copies of my cards. I may also work on a card today. Canteen should be here this morning, so that's something to look forward to. I'm fixing to watch the CBS News and then decide what to do. Bed's already made, cell's in compliance.
11:46am: Just finished eating lunch. Cleaned the cell up. Wrote my Dad and Otto this morning. Canteen still has not run. They called recreation for this afternoon. Sure wish I could go out. I need to get out of this cell for awhile. I'm fixing to start working on a card. That'll pass some time for me. I wrote a blog, "Chaos", a few minutes ago.
1:29pm: Canteen ran about 30 minutes ago. Right now I'm working on a painting and listening to music. Fixing to stop and write my mom a letter. The officers are pulling for recreation right now. I also need to write up a motion. Which I need to get filed by Monday. So time to get to it.
5:00pm: Just finished eating dinner. I've just been sitting around listening to music and doing some painting. I'm fixing to kick back, watch the news and call it a day. Maybe tomorrow will hold better than what today held.