Daily Journal
April 22-30, 2013

Monday April 22, 2013 10:47am: The guys are coming in off the yard right now. I still can't go out with them. I've been writing all morning. I've still got some more writing to do, and art. Other than that, I'm not sure how I'm going to pass the day.
3:35pm: I talked to the head classification officer just a minute ago, and he said I'm not on heightened security. I've just been listening to music, doing some art. I'm making some burritos. I'm not eating that dinner, it's a nasty processed patty. We shower tonight and we're last so I won't be going out to shower until 8pm. I'm fixing to do some more art and then go from there.

Tuesday April 23, 2013 4:31pm: I've been writing most of the day. I heard from a couple of churches last night. One I expected to hear from. He, the pastor, I seen him on TV and he had Christlike qualities. So I wrote, did some art work. I have my dinner heating up now. I got up at 2:30am, so I'm ready for bed. One of the inmates had it out with the sgt with words and is now on strip cell. He wasn't on this wing, and the inmate is mentally ill. He shouldn't even be on death row, he should be in a mental institute. Well, I'm going to eat, wash clothes, bath and call it a day.

Wednesday April 24, 2013 2:58pm: Just finished exercising. 'Bout time I did something. Feel sick to my stomach, it's hot in here. This morning I did some writing. I didn't get any mail last night. Maybe I'll get some tonight. I wrote a couple of more churches. I still have a pastor I heard from the other day that I need to write. It was one of those who rejected me. I write everyone back. We are first in the shower tonight. I'm going to stay up and watch Survivor. Canteen didn't show up today, should be here tomorrow. I'm going to do some reading now, while I watch this church show. It's crossed my mind that I'm brainwashing myself watching these.

Thursday April 25, 2013 5:44pm: Just finished writing a letter. Did some art work today. Fixing to wash clothes, wash up and call it a day. This morning I watched a bill get passed to speed up these executions. Sick. 'Cause there was a lot of joy in passing a bill that slaughters human life. Just more fake Christians. Someone should pray for them. I done something this morning that I haven't done in a long time. I prayed. It was about 4:30am. I lost my faith in that bible. I'd love to have faith again, but there's only one way. See, I'd have to have divine intervention or divine healing. Just so happens I have hepatitis C, and these churches I've been watching have been showing a lot of healing. Well, if you're a true follower of Christ, pray for this hepatitis C to be cast out of my body. And if that happens, I'll have restored faith. That's what I'm up to. Fixing to call it a day, I've been up since 3am and I'm tired.

Friday April 26, 2013 2:47pm: Was just working on some art earlier. This morning I did some writing, mainly to pastors who are writing me rejection letters. One of the guys just came back from a phone call. Someone in his family died in a car wreck. I feel for him. He's really upset down there. We have the worst chaplains. They have no Christlike qualities. Our volunteer chaplain is a real good Christian, but he hasn't been around in several weeks. I can't believe how I went in the bible to write about my lost faith, then went in search of a true Christian friend who would visit, and now I'm trying to restore my faith. Strange how things work out. Well, I'm going back to this art project.

Saturday April 27, 2013 3:06pm: I got several letters written today, some art done, and I had a good exercise session. Soon as I eat dinner, I'm going to pace for 30 minutes then wash clothes, bath and get in bed and call it a day. Race is on tonight, but I don't think I'm staying up for it. TV is just not that important to me. Most of these guys would go nuts without it. I've been mainly watching Christian shows, church programs. There's a few really good preachers, some are just blowing smoke up people's butts, telling people what they want to hear. Which is a lot of sugar coated B.S. and not the true teachings of the text.

Sunday April 28, 2013 3:17pm: Just sitting here watching basketball. I exercised this morning, wrote a pastor who wrote me a rejection letter this past week. I exercised, then washed clothes and bathed after the Miami game. I'll watch the news and go to sleep. I watched a couple of pastors this morning, and they're the ones who wouldn't even respond to my letters. They do not practice what they preach.

Monday April 29, 2013 4:12pm: Waiting on dinner then showers. I'm listening to my new music, some reason they came by doing that today instead of tomorrow. I did some writing and then some art. I've been up since 3am. So when I get my shower, I'll come back and go to sleep. I read some today. Following one of these TV preachers, and he was twisting the scriptures in a way that was wrong, but he's got a big megachurch so he's feeding the people what they want, even if it is incorrect. Oh well.

Tuesday April 30, 2013 3:27pm: They just finished a major shake down on the other side of the building. We thought they were coming over here. Not sure what that was about. I've been writing, doing art, worked on a Christian card, came out okay. But just been sitting here doing that, listening to music. I did just go through my cell to make sure there was nothing in here that wasn't supposed to be here. Ellmer has 28 days to live, unless his attorneys can stop it. They should be able to get a stay on mental retardation. 'Cause he's mentally ill. He's got 4 weeks to live, so we'll see. It is so hot in here. I don't like these summers, it would be different if we had A/C. Well, I'm going to go back to doing art then I'll eat, wash clothes, bath and call it a day.