Reply ID: fquc

12/26/2013
Watching Sportscenter (I'm a 76ers fan, but we stink).

Hi Arcadiaego.

Very unusual handle. I was curious when I saw it. How did you come up with it? I'm able to make a few guesses out of Arcadiaego, but I'm probably wrong.

Well, you are my first response to the question I asked. And I gotta say, you put some thought into your answer. Thank you. You were telling me about the brain scans of a patient and how they change after going therapy. I know it won't happen because I'm in prison, but I wish I could see mine now and one from 15 years ago. I've changed inside, I don't view the world the same, I don't feel the same, I have compassion now, I am able to be violent to protect myself or someone in here from a bully or being harmed, but I have no desire to be violent anymore.

I've been like this for a few years and you wanna know something? I've done a very violent crime and I am in a single cell because I am not able to live with anyone else. But not once have I ever been given any therapy of any type in prison. No psychiatrist, no psychologist, nothing. No counseling. Just making a point that in prison, they just don't care. You're expected to follow the rules or they just lock you in the hole and forget you exist. I've met people who've been in the hole for 10, 20 years. And after something like that, I do believe your brain will physically change. I do have anger but I get over it a lot easier and quicker than I did 15 years ago. I do react to situations more differently now than I did before.

You are right, people in bad environments with little or no money, no support or education, will unlikely change. They usually end up in here, and prison is a cycle that's hard to break.

Well, I have to go. Today is my Mom's 58th birthday. I call her every year on her birthday. Thank you for answering my question. It gives us something to think about and discuss in here. Take care. If you ever want to talk about something, drop me a line. Thanks. God bless. Ciao.