Reply ID: jf7b

1/26/14
5:00 PM
Listening to Imperfect by Stone Sour

Bryan,

I remember the name (it's different), but I cannot put a face to it. My memory is horrible. I heard from you and Ranya today, and it was a very nice surprise. I never imagined anyone from my childhood would remember me. I always thought of myself as someone people wouldn't want to remember. As I told Ranya, I remember her because I liked her when we were kids. And I remember Mrs. Tice and her daughter who came in one day to teach German. I still remember some of those words.

What I don't know is how did you find my blog? I already responded to Ranya's writing, and now here I am. I have a horrible memory. Help me remember you. I was not a good kid, and you and Ranya are the first people from my childhood to ever come back into my life. I remember some names but not many. I don't remember a Mike Renz. Been too long, I guess. Too many years in prison messes up your mind. I spent way too long in solitary confinement.

I have made many bad choices, but I would like for people to recognize that I am changing, for the better, and that I am not the kid I once was. I want to do something good in life. Something to help someone else. And if my words or my story is all I got, then I'll use them. Hopefully my pain will persuade someone else to make changes before it's too late. I'm no miracle worker. I'm not wealthy, and I don't have a big support network. But what I do have is a hard story. I need this blog to get my story out to people who need change. People who still matter but think they don't. I'm doing my best to fix my life, to live it the best I can and to grow each and every day. Just hearing from you and Ranya today helped me grow a little more.

I gotta run, sorry. But it's almost time for night yard, and I try not to miss yard unless I have no other choice. I hurt my back pretty bad about 10-11 months ago, and I haven't been able to workout really. So I gotta get out and at least walk around and enjoy the cold night air. It's one of the few things in life that I still enjoy.

Take care, Bryan, and I'd like to hear from you again. You and Ranya took me back to a time when I was happy, and that meant a lot to me. I've forgotten my childhood and I wish I could remember. Grazie. God bless, ciao.