REPLY ID: 86JF

March 20 2014: 4.00pm: LISTEING TO: ALL OF ME BY: JOHN LEGEND

Jan

Hi, I just received your response and I want to thank you for posting a comment. I guess I have been boring lately because I don't get many responses anymore. I'll have to work on that. I am very happy to report that I am going to be able to call my little girl soon. Sometime next month this should be worked out and I'll be able to hear her voice (I haven't heard her voice since July 2005 and I am excited that Hannah wrote and told me I will be able to call her very soon. Now I just need a phone number and a time. I didn't have much of a life Jan so I want to so much more hope for my daughter. I spent most of my teenage life fighting for my own safety in a juvenile prison or just being an angry A**. I never knew happiness until I met my Justine. I know love and I know happiness and though they have been ripped away from me, I want my daughter to know them also. I will always do everything I possibly can for my little girl. I can't believe she is 16, I still look at her baby pictures and wonder why this was our life. Hannah told me that Krista cut her hair and it is very short now and I mam hoping Hannah sends me new photo's soon, (that's a hint if you're reading this Hannah). But seriously, Hannah is her Social Worker and she has been a blessing from God. Without her I wouldn't have Krista in my life. Krista does need all of her Social Workers and therapists but I do worry that when she is she won't be ready and in Ohio she does have the opportunity to do a program that will teach her how to live on her own when she is 18 but she has had such a hard time. I still worry my brains out. So many kids are ready to be on their own but when I was 18, I wasn't. I thought I was, thought since I had been in a new Jersey maximum security state prison that I was a grown up tough guy, boy I was wrong. I spent a winter homeless and freezing my butt off but I was too proud to go home. Krista has no home so that's not and option for her. This independent living program is her only shot. I'm a worrier by nature I guess, but I put it in God's hands and I do trust in him. He has done so much for me and given me opportunities and I am very grateful. And this blog has been very helpful for me and my daily sanity I here. Having a life sentence is not easy to deal with. Every day you wake up to the same thing and know that it will never change. Well I thank you for writing Jan and I look forward to anymore advice you may have for me in the future. Any ideas how to make my blog better for readers? I'm all ears, take care and God Bless. CIAO.