FAMILY

3/21/14: 10:30AM: LISTENING TO: DAIRY OF A DEADMAN BY: 5 FINGER DEATH PUNCH

I want to talk about family. In prison you have nothing but your family. Friends come and go, but your family is your family. You share a bloodline and that means something, especially to me. Today for the first time in our lives, I was able to speak to my little sister Ann. We talked for 30 minutes and I was so happy. I have finally gotten to speak to my Fathers family when he died. My step Mom Sandy, my sisters Jenn and Ann, now I just need to meet the men in in their lives and their kids. I look at the title of this 5 FDP song, diary of a Dead man. And I think of myself and my own life when I see these words. This blog and my letters to my family and friends are like the diary of a Dead man. I will never walk free from these prison walls but I want to leave my story behind. No one wants to be forgotten, including us in prison. I once read this;
"To live in the hearts
of those we love,
is to never die".

I remind people of this because alive or in death, no one wants to be forgotten, including me. My brother 33 is having a big birthday party tomorrow for his 3 year old daughter baby Lucy and my Aunt Cindy who will be?? (Tomorrow, (I love you Cindy, she is a wonderful Aunt0, but my brother asked me if I would call back tomorrow to talk to all the people who would be there. But most of those people have not bothered to reach out to me, or even send me a note in a long time. So why use what little money I have for phone calls on them when I can use it on my Mom and my newly found little sisters. I lovely sisters and I don't even have to know then that well. They are of my bloodline and I felt love for them immediately and now, as I get to know them and their family, my love is growing. This is short but I just want to say to my family, I love you's all and for the ones who stand my me, I can never thank you's enough. Do you know that every friend I ever had before prison has bailed on me. Every good person in my life is someone I met since coming to prison. And some of them I have grown to love like my family. Like my friend BJ, who is having a birthday on April2, she knows I love her and to me, she is my family. I wish you a very happy birthday BJ, My baby sister Ann who will be 27 on March 30, I love you Mia Poco Sorella (My little sister) and I thank God for you. I wish you's all a wonderful birthday and I hope that you can forgive me for not being there. I am in prison, a life sentence means forever. I cannot change that but I can be the best son, brother, Uncle, cousin, and nephew that I can possibly be. I leave you with this, I have changed so much since coming to prison, I am not perfect, I do make mistakes, but I am proud of who I am becoming, all I ask for is a chance. Take care, God Bless, and enjoy Spring, It's finally here! (: CIAO

PS. I can never thank Hannah enough for finding my SISYERS and making this possible.