"There are countless ways to die. The worst is to fade away without purpose." Serena Butter (from Dune: The Machine Crusade by Brian Herbert and Kevin G. Anderson)

03-26-14

Dear Readers,

Howdy! Best wishes to everyone!

Well, it doesn't feel like spring, but spring it is. The ornamental pear trees are blooming again. They're so beautiful. The daffodils too. The trees were damaged a lot last year with all the storms we had. Several branches were lost and even some whole trees. Any trees lost will not be replaced. Most prisons have zero trees or plants, and I am very grateful to have some around here.

I almost went to the Hole on Sunday. I was in my cell with Cowboy in a "compromising position" (both fully clothed) when the CO looked in. We were sent to the Lt.'s (lieutenant's) office. He ended up blowing it off in the long run. When we got back to the unit, everybody started clapping. OMG. How fucking embarrassing.

A short while later, the CO came back and sent us to the Lt.'s office again and then to medical for a sexual assault exam. This prick CO was just desperate to have something on us and wrote a Code 409 "shot" for "unauthorized contact." Many inmates don't even know that the 400 series of code violations exist. That's how petty and little used they are.

We had our UDC (Unit Disciplinary Committee) meeting on Monday, and I think even the staff members were annoyed that their time was being wasted on such BS. It ended up being informally resolved, but we both have to do eight hours of extra duty for that asshole CO when he works again on Sunday. I am so pissed at that guy. I just want to tell him to kiss my ass. He purposefully came over, out of his area, while the UDC hearing took place and went in there alone at the end. I'm sure just to convince them to do something.

They're starting to put the cameras up in the units. They got North Carolina unit—where I work—first. It's insane. I cannot believe that in the this time of fiscal problems they pushed through this ridiculous and unnecessary expenditure. I'd love to report this to some government agency.

I finally saw the PA at medical last week after two months. He gave me a prescription for antibiotics which, so far, have had no effect. I'm supposed to be sent to the medical center for an ultrasound. The lump on my chest has not gotten smaller. I filed a complaint which is weeks behind in being answered.

Oh, I forgot. About the whole scene with Cowboy and me? The gossip is ALL over the compound. It's fucking ridiculous. One thing that I heard is that we were caught 69ing. Really? Even the COs are gossiping about it. How is that these so-called "men" are really only gossiping bitches? I'm supposed to be the "fag", but I don't gossip anywhere near that much.

Best wishes.

Love and blessings,
Kelly