Oct. 19, 2011

And What

by John M Connelly


[drawing of a smiling bunny face.]
And what can I do for you? A personalized poem, perhaps? Maybe my thoughts on yours? Ha!

Procure a drawing of evil incarnate? Or a lovely watercolor puppies or kittens? A clown with balloons? Some type of landscape in mind? Hmm. Talk about old times and new.

Leave a thought for my future perusal or open the can of words NOW by writing.


John Michael Connelly H-83535
PO Box 409060
Ione, CA 95640

#XOXO all

I don't condone striking any woman, but will speak on the issues of domestic violence and/or other related or non.


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tamera Posted 7 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 7 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
OMG YOU DO NOT CONDONE STRICKING ANY WOMAN OR CHILD! THAT IS THE BIGGIST LIE I HAVE EVER HEARD! Me the first the one who 27 yrs later carry outward and inward scars. Not to speak of my son who was only 5 when you dam near killed him and i. Why r u there. You got out and beat women over and over until the state stepped in and pressed the charges themselves
Because you pray on the weak who don't or can't stand up for themselves

John Michael Connelly as your ex wife a person who still suffers from your physical and mental abuse even 27 years later. You killed our child I was carrying you forever damaged my son and myself. You didn't deserve to get out the first time. You didn't deserve to go on to have children ever. I was afraid every day of every year you were out of prison and still check to make sure u are where you belong. To my suprise up pops your handwriting something I would think after all these years I wouldnt remember but it was fear I feel. Reading your rantings gives me some comfort as I can now stand back and really see how crazy insane you really are. The drs were corrected end all those yrs ago. 3 strikes was made for people like you who are severe violent offenders. As i said you never should of walked free once you were arrested and put in prison. I should of stood up at had you put away before then. I hope you have some remorse but I doubt your capable.

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tamera Posted 7 years ago. ✓ Mailed 7 years ago   Favorite
John you spent 8 yrs for what you did to me and Shawn. The DA sent me packing? Yeah by.putting you in prison. My son is doing good with 3'daughters and a son and 1 wife.

I am not evil or'crazy. I do not allow my self controlled as.you did. I am a college graduate with several degrees. The reason I.wrote you is to be able to tell you how you.physically and.mentally fucked me up.for a long.ass.time. But.writing.you has made it so I could let go. And really rid myself of the demons that.are you. Killing the baby our baby that I was carrying by.kicking.me in the belly.that.I can never forgive.

babylove2198cvtospv2hell Posted 6 years, 12 months ago. ✓ Mailed 6 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
I am contacting you about Patricia (Trisha)
our daughter. She's absolutely beautiful,very intelligent,athletically inclined young woman who is going to be moving on to Knox College on an
Athletic Scholarship (Soccer). No thanks to you
or me. She's curious, to say the least and she
deserves your attention to what she wants to know from you. I know you will takenaback. Thank

MEHL(Marilee Turner)

babylove2198cvtospv2hell Posted 6 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 6 years, 11 months ago     1 Favorite
I am hopeful, John that you will correspond with Trisha. I want you to be aware of the importance of this to our daughter. She wants so badly to know her Father.

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babylove2198cvtospv2hell Posted 6 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 6 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
I thank you very much John, Trisha is so very determined to come visit you. I will write to you and find out visitation for her. My address is
Marilee Turner
144 South 36th Street
San Diego, CA 92113

Thank you!

babylove2198cvtospv2hell Posted 6 years, 9 months ago. ✓ Mailed 6 years, 9 months ago   Favorite
I got your letter a few weeks ago
and gave Trisha Sissy's number.
I also let her know about Charlo
being a mother, so she's an Aunt.
I really appreciate you contacting
her, I really do not have much of a
relationship with her. As for I
have alot of explaining to do.... I
do not,my whole life I have. Take

TrishTurner98 Posted 6 years, 5 months ago. ✓ Mailed 6 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Hi John,
How are you? I have so many questions. I apologize for not being more frequent in writing to you but my life is going very well and I wish the same for you. I have always wondered about you and what traits I acquired from you. Now that I am aware of the fact that you know I exist the hole in my heart has shrunk a bit but is still there nonetheless. What color are your eyes?

Hope to hear from you soon!

Your daughter,


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TrishTurner98 Posted 6 years, 3 months ago. ✓ Mailed 6 years, 2 months ago   Favorite

That explained a lot... I have green eyes too! I had blue eyes until I was about five years old and then boom they turned green. Also, it is funny that you mentioned how much you enjoy the water because I am a fish. I literally jumped into the water and taught myself how to swim when I three years old. But the fun doesn't end there... I spend my days off rollerblading down the boardwalk and after go surf or swim in the ocean. Crazy how much we have in common. I wish I remembered you or knew you before you went away. Life is a crazy ride and I am trying to enjoy every minute of it. It would be even more enjoyable if you could make an appearance in my life one day or if I could make an appearance in yours. How would one go about visiting you?

Hope to hear from you soon!


TrishTurner98 Posted 6 years, 2 months ago. ✓ Mailed 6 years, 1 month ago   Favorite

Although you may be hesitant to see me I do want to talk whether it is in person one day of over the phone. I called today to see what it would take for me to contact you and they said that you have to be the one to reach out to me and it will not cost you anything. My number is 858-337-2856. I hope you call me one day.

Trish Turner

Tamera Posted 6 years, 2 months ago. ✓ Mailed 6 years, 1 month ago   Favorite
Do you know your father Trish, do you know what he did to me (the only woman he ever legally married) and my son and to what should of been your older sibling? Research. I know he never changed or he wouldn't of been put back behind bars for three strikes VIOLENCE! After John beat me and killed our baby I was never able to have another child. He beat my 5 yrs old son, we didn't even look human after he was done. My son has issues his whole life from what he saw and went through. I have had issues where he broke my jaw several times and my eardrums, scars where he split my eyes open over and over. I was 21! He beat me because other men looked at me, because I said something to some woman that sat on his lap. He kept my son and I apart as much as possible so I wouldn't run away. His family all personally Seen him beat me from the first day we were married. They were too afraid of him like everyone else, too afraid to stand up to him. He never cared about who he beat. Even my doberman. Some guy who walked up and knocked at the door at the wrong time. He moved us around constantly from state to state from place to place or bus on the beach. I have been haunted my entire life by the monster John Michael Connelly. If you truelly believe there is anything to this monster that's worth saving. Your wrong. No one who destroys and deliberately hurts so many woman children animals people etc.... is not redeemable. Look into his past. Look into his legal cases. There are pictures of me and my child attached to the case. In fact the reason I didn't have to go to San Diego and testify in the three strikes case is because the judge decided at the lady minute that there was so much evidence in the original case, with the pictures etc... that he was not putting me through the trauma of being anywhere near him. I remember when the Drs from Chino gave me John's diagnosis and told me he could never change. I remember seeing John in jail doing the "lithium shuffle " and even behind glass had him chained hand and feet together. I remember them putting him in the police car (i didnt even know if my son was alive at that point) 3 cops to put him in he busted out window of cop car. The took him out chained him up and still had a hard time containing him. I remember him standing in the parking lot of the apts knowing the police were coming when your uncle and aunt called them,had me by the hair waiting for the police. When they got there he yelled and told them your taking me in for beating her let me show you how I beat her, as he kicked and punched me in front of them. I weighed 98 LBS. All children and woman should of been protected from him.and I am sorry but considering he killed our child whom he said he was so happy we were having, from beating me while pregnant. And the damage caused me to not lose child after child and never be able to carry another. I feel he should not of ever had any children. Ever. He should never of laid hands on another woman.

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babylove2198cvtospv2hell Posted 5 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 5 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
Tamara, I am Mehl, Trisha's Mother. My daughter has her God given grace and her own right entitling her knowing her father, John. By no means do I wish to disregard your pain,your losses. I would like for you to do the same. Most sincerely Tamara. Mehl.

Tamera Posted 5 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 5 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
I hate this i sent a big long response and the comp messed it up and it was lost. You know your daughter has a what right? John is about as far from God as can be. My child had a right to live but john who wanted our child so much, in one of his crazy fits killed our child, left my 5 yr old for dead on our bed after beating him with fists and feet. Tied up and beat my two dobermans And almost killing me. He took my ability to ever give birth to any child due to the damage to my insides. I have had over 20 surgeries on my jaw, nose, back, leg, shoulder and female organs because of the direct damage of the beating. My son has had anger and anxiety issues his whole life because of johns beatings. And last YOUR DAUGHTER OLDER SIBLING DIED! Never got a chance bexause of her dna donor. I guess you your happy john that
Is such a mean evil person. Because if he didnt have that evilness i probably would of stayed with my husband because i loved the small part of him when he wasnt abusive, .... to me strangers men children animals etc.... just fyi i know much more about johns relationships and abuse after he was released from prison the first time. As i was kept in the know by the courts due to protection issues. Luckily when he was put in prison ladt time the attorneys and victims wittness were able to get the judge to accept the files and awful pictures of me and my son from the first hearing, so i didnt have to testify. They were going to fly me down to testify in his three stikes case. I was refusing but they were threatening me with arrest but were able to get it so i didnt have to. I went to college moved forward the best i could but johns abuse EXTREME forever affected every day of my life since, physically and emotionally. Why would you want your daughter to have anything to do with that monster? DNA does not make a father and hopefully she is nothing like him beyond his looks. Drs told me yrs ago john due to his diagnosis would never marry anyone elsr. John told me tge same. That as far as he was concerned i would always be his wife. From what i have been told apparently....... oh i was also told that after he got out he choose woman that already had emotional or mental issues to pray on in an attempt that they wouldnt stand up for themselves like i did. I dont know if your one of them that dropped charges or hid abuse or if your the one he was arrested on last that attempted to drop charges. But i know how much john lies and can make you believe he will never do it ahain. How he can wine and dine and woo a woman. He waited on me had and foot and pampered me and bought me things etc... when he wasnt in a rage, in an attempt to make me bwlieve he was sorry. But.... it was alwats a game. You the other woman and his live children. Are no differnt or better then me my son our deceased child etc.... nothing matters to john but john. Everybody is just something to use and destroy.... why would you want your daughter to not know the truth?

Tamera Posted 5 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 5 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
I am here to finally get a chance to make sure john knows and never forgets what he did to me and my children. I want him to live with it every single minute for tge rest of his life. Just like i have had to and my son has had to. He grew up knowing his sibling was murdered. Remembering his mom getting beaten and remebering at age 5 how he was beaten. Would you prefer ypur daughter have those kind of memories? I am sorry but i feel he should of been castrated after killing our child and damaging my son physically and mentally. And destroying my life. And lord only knows how many other lifes. Hope you and your daughter can go on to forget and live fullfilling lives. But hope you think about what kind of person you want ypur daughter to get to know. As i said dna isnt what makes a parent. And thankfully ypur child was spared.

babylove2198cvtospv2hell Posted 5 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 5 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
Tamara, No I am not one of the women who dropped charges against John...as a matter of fact I embellished the facts and lied. I am ashamed. I am not interested in having or pursuing a "Mrs" relationship with John although I do love John, we are Trisha's parents, not you. Once again I am deeply sorry for the pain and loss you endure. My daughter is a compassionate, intelligent beautiful soul
, she loves her father. Thank you for your concerns but Trisha and her father got it. Mehl

ChristineConnelly Posted 4 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 4 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
By the way I do suffer the same memories as all the woman, I was a little girl. I know right from wrong even when people are evil and being the worst. I taught myself to love even those who hurt me and forgive. The past is the past. after I am sorry to all the woman my father ever hurt. Still no right to be so vindictive and evil. The past is done. Not one deserves life in prison for life ! I love my father and wouldn't ask for a better dad. Yes he made mistakes and he has served time!!! God bless

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TrishTurner98 Posted 2 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 2 years, 3 months ago   Favorite
Hey! I stopped reaching out for a while as life got busy for me but I officially earned my college degree and am pursuing personal training. I hope you’re keeping busy as you can in there and staying healthy!

TrishTurner98 Posted 2 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 2 years, 3 months ago   Favorite
Also you can contact me at this number it’s connected to my real number 831-315-7207

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wdwheels Posted 2 years, 2 months ago. ✓ Mailed 2 years, 2 months ago   Favorite
Thank you for writing this. I'm still new to transcribing, but I think it's really nice that you're still writing for your family.

TrishTurner98 Posted 2 years, 1 month ago. ✓ Mailed 2 years, 1 month ago   Favorite
Hey John, We moved back to CA. Do you accept visitors ? I don’t know how to go about that process

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