YOU ONLY GET 1 MOM

JUNE 28, 2015: 12:30pm: LISTENING TO: FOR YOU BY: ALL THAT REMAINS

TODAY IS A MISERABLE DAY IN MY LIFE AND IN MY HEART. MY MOM HAS HAD A HARD LIFE. EVERY MAN SHE HAS EVER HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH BEAT HER. MY MOM WAS A FIGHTER THOUGH. SHE WOULD FIGHT BACK. BUT MEN BEATING WOMEN HAS BEEN HAPPENING IN EVERY CULTURE, EVERYWHERE IN THE WORLD. BUT IT'S A CRIME THAT SHOULD BE LOOKED DOWN UPON, NOT JUST GIVEN A SLAP ON THE WRIST. THANKFULLY MY MOM MET & MARRIED MY STEP DAD WHO HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR HER FOR THE LAST 30+ YEARS. MY MOM HAS HAD HARD JOBS. FROM BEING AN EXCELLENT AUTO MECHANIC TO BEING A NURSING AIDE IN A NURSING HOME AND IN PRIVATE HOME CARE. IT'S DEFINITELY NOT EASY TAKING CARE OF ANOTHER GROWN HUMAN BEING WHO IS UNABLE TO CARE FOR THEMSELVES. BUT MOM LOVED IT AND WAS GOOD AT IT.

YEAR AFTER YEAR MOM FOUGHT TO KEEP HER JOBS. SHE WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR US KIDS. MY MOM HAD 4 KIDS OF HER OWN AND MY STEP BROTHER ERIC, WHO SADLY DIED FROM MUSCULAR DISTROPHY 20 YEARS AGO. MY MOM WAS SHOT IN THE 1980'S AND ENDED UP GETTING HEPATITIS C FROM THE TAINTED BLOOD SHE RECEIVED DURING SURGERY AND THE TRANSFUSION. SHE LIVED WITH THAT UNTIL 2000, THEN SHE RECEIVED THE TREATMENTS FOR IT AND IS NOW HEPATITIS C FREE. THEN HER HIP WENT BAD, MY MOM STRUGGLED JUST TO WALK AROUND HER HOUSE FOR YEARS UNTIL HER HEALTH CARE AGREED TO PAY FOR HIP REPLACEMENT SURGERY. THEN MY MOM DEVELOPED LEUKEMIA. A YEAR OF CHEMO AND IT WENT INTO REMISSION I GUESS BECAUSE THEY SAID IT WAS GONE. THEN IT CAME BACK, STRONGER THEN EVER, NOW WHILE UNDERGOING CHEMO FOR AN ADVANCED FORM OF LEUKEMIA, SHE IS TOLD SHE HAS A NEW TYPE OF CANCER, ONE THAT SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT IT'S CALLED, AND SHE WAS TOLD SHE IS NOT ALLOWED TO EAT ANYTHING FRESH. NO FRESH FRUIT, VEGETABLE, NOTHING FROM THE GROUND. I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANY OF THIS. HOW DOES HER CANCER GET EVEN MORE ADVANCED OR DEVELOP INTO A MORE SERIOUS FORM WHILE UNDERGOING CHEMO. THIS MAKES NO SENSE TO ME.

WE ONLY GET 1 MOM. I AM TERRIFIED AT THE THOUGHT OF LOSING MY MOM. I WOULD GLADLY GIVE MY LIFE FOR HER. I'VE KNOWN SO MANY PEOPLE WHO HAVE LOST THEIR MOMS BUT NOW I FACE THE SAME REALITY AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EVEN IMAGINE IT IN HERE LET ALONE THE REALITY THAT IT COULD HAPPEN SOONER THEN I WANT. I HONESTLY HOPE I DON'T OUTLIVE HER. BUT THIS IS JUST ME BEING SELFISH. NO PARENT SHOULD HAVE TO BURY THEIR CHILD.

SORRY FOR RAMBLING. THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO BUT PRAY DAILY AND ASK GOD TO HEAL MY MOM AND NOT TO PUNISH HER FOR MY SINS. I ENJOYED TODAYS GOSPEL READING. ANYONE INTERESTED, CHECK OUT: MARK 5: 21-43. IT'S THE PERFECT GOSPEL READING FOR ME TODAY. ALL ABOUT HEALING, FAITH AND THE POWER OF JESUS. BUT I DO BELIEVE THAT MY MOM SUFFERS IN PAIN FOR MY SINS. I WASN'T A GOOD PERSON FOR A VERY LONG TIME AND MY SINS CAN'T BE WASHED AWAY THAT EASY. WE'RE TAUGHT THAT BAPTISM WASHES AWAY ALL OF YOUR PRIOR SIN BUT EVEN IF THATS TRUE, WE, AS HUMANS, CONTINUE TO SIN DAILY. WE ALL DO, EVERY DAY. WELL I THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME RAMBLE. MY HAPPIEST MOMENT OF THIS PAST WEEK WAS WHEN I CALLED MY BROTHER AND BABY LUCY WAS IN THE BACKGROUND TELLING ME, UNCLE ROBBY, I'M GONNA GET SOME CWEAM CWEAM, WITH CANDIES ON TOP. THIS WAS HER WAY OF TELLING ME SHE WAS GETTING ICE CREAM WITH JIMMIES ON TOP. SHE IS A 3 YEAR OLD BALL OF LOVE AND ENERGY. WISH I COULD HAVE HAD THOSE MOMENTS WITH MY DAUGHTER.

WELL THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME VENT AND TALK ABOUT MY MOM. PLEASE SAY A PRAYER FOR HER. SHE DIDN'T COMMIT MY CRIME AND SHE DESERVES NONE OF THE BLAME, OR PAIN. SHE DEDICATED HER LIFE TO HELPING PEOPLE AND NOW SHE IS THE ONE WHO NEEDS THE HELP. TAKE CARE, HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GOOD 4th OF JULY PICNIC, TREASURE YOUR FAMILY, ESPECIALLY MOM. GOD BLESS, CIAO.