Reply ID: ka79

4/17/16: 10:30am: Listening to: Castle of Glass by: Linkin Park

Dear Meagan Brown 2524,

Hi, how are you? I hope good. I saw that you read something that I wrote, posted a comment but you didn't give me much to respond too so, please forgive me if this isn't very long. As a reminder, anyone who wishes to, can set up an e-mail account at:

www.connectnetwork.com

You can e-mail me and I'd receive it usually that same day. But you have to go to that site to register. So, tell me this Meagan, how did you find me? What made you read what I wrote and respond?
I have a purpose for doing this blog. I am trying to educate people on the outside about prison. That's 1 reason. I am also trying to connect with more people on the outside. Not just on the blog, but to develop friendships and connections. As prisoners, we are left in the stone age, but now we have the opportunity for e-mail and better connections with people, I am trying to utilize it. I really enjoy writing this blog. Helps me deal with my emotions. Like today for example, my brother has been telling me he will be up to see me today. He would bring our mom and his baby, little 4 year old Lucy. But are they coming? No. It doesn't just hurt, it frustrates me, angers me, and makes me want to shut everyone out. I came to this prison 5 months ago with the sole intentions of seeing my mom, I am 30 minutes away from her, but I cannot get anyone to bring her to see me. It's killing me inside. My mom is dying and no one will bring her to see me. I used to be 3 hours from her but I moved to a prison where we have some of the worst food in the system, I'm sorry I'm ranting. I just had my hopes up and once again, I have been let down. When I ask my family for help, I'm usually told I am asking for too much, God forbid anyone gets off their asses and does something productive.
My cousin Maura got married yesterday. I don't know her very well. Been 18 years since I have seen her but I sent her a card.
Do you believe people can change Meagan? Just curious. What's your background? Where you from? Are you in college? Older than that? Just being nosy. It's hard to meet people in here. I don't put up any of the pen pal websites. I'm not looking for love and on those sites, most people are. I'm looking for friends, people to talk to, write to, people who want to be in my life and want me in theirs. I found love and she has been buried now over 14 years. My hearts still broken.
I called my sister Dawn today. Dawn is super busy with 3 kids, all very active boys. Ronnie is 17 and will play college basketball. Jordan is 13 but should follow in Ronnie's footsteps, and Richard, well, he's 11 and I haven't met him yet. Anyway, Dawn told me our half brother, Jesse, stopped in the restaurant she works in. Long story short, he was with his girl and another girl, Debbie, who says we are friends, they all say "tell Rob we said Hi." Okay, first off, Jesse hasn't bothered to tell me Hi on his own in 5 years. We were once very close. I have never known a girl named Debbie. My step mom, Jesse's mom, but that's it. What frustrates me is the lack of interaction I have with my family and friends. Whatever happened to the closeness between family members? Seems like in my family, it's about gone.
Anyway, not a good weekend. My favorite hockey team lost last night, so did my baseball team (Flyers and Phillies). Won't see my mom now ): So, the only good thing I got is the warm weather. Beautiful day out. I'll go to lunch in about 15 minutes, then outside to work out at 1 pm. I'll get a good 90 minutes in working out. Not much else to do in places like this.
Well, I'm gonna get going Meagan. You can write me on here, it's public but it takes sometimes 2-3 weeks for me to receive comments that are posted for me. Or you can check out the e-mail site or you can help the post office and write a letter. It was nice hearing from you. Take care, get out and enjoy this gorgeous weather. Hope to hear from you again. God Bless. Ciao.