Reply ID: wt6x

July 28, 2016, 11:00 AM, watching The View

Dear Rita,

Hi, how are you? I hope good. I received your comments last night.

I had a horrible night. I volunteer in the infirmary. There are about 8 men dying right now. We have horrible medical care in prison, so I help with what I can. Sometimes I read to them, I write letters for them, feed them. I am still not used to changing the diapers, but my mom did it in a nursing home as a LPN for years, so I can do it too.

Well, I am glad you can see the good side of me. I have a horrible woman named Maggie who writes me some really nasty comments. She thinks the state should have murdered me for my crime. She is very hateful.

Well, I know a little of Belgium. I know my favorite tennis player is from there, Justine Henin. A shame she retired. You lived in Ohio, huh. I did for a short time also. My 18 yr old daughter lives in Cleveland. My family in Italy are very fluent in a bunch of languages. They are going to a wedding in Poland so Polish is what they are learning right now. They are my friends but over a decade, I love them as my family.

You are very energetic, huh. I wish I had your energy. But having hobbies and staying busy are very important. Well, I'll tell you what: I haven't written anything in many years, but what I can still find, I will main in and have put on this site. Okay. I probably have 10 or so left. Some are just too inappropriate to put on here. I was a very angry & hurt young man when my Justine was killed & all I could think of was revenge. Can't believe it's been almost 15 years now since she was killed.

Well, San Diego, CA looks like a nice place to live in on TV. But it's good that you still have 1 daughter & 2 grandbabies in Belgium with you. Grandkids need to spend time with their grandparents. I was very close to my nonna until she died in 2006. By the way, please feel free to ask whatever you want to know. My older brother & sister, Dawn & Jeremy, share your new grandson's birthday.

My Italian is horrible. I gave up on learning. Too hard for me to teach myself through books. I thought it would be easy, but I was so wrong. But no big deal. I used to write to a girl for about 10 years in the Netherlands & Dutch would be one hard language to learn without hearing it.

I will end this now so I can add this one poem that I wrote on 5-21-2002. My Justine was murdered on 10/25/01. Take care, enjoy your grandbabies & I look forward to hearing from you. God bless, ciao.

No More Pain
Anger, sadness & misery are what fill my heart
They are the 3 things in my life that can never depart
I've lost so much, there's nothing I can do
I've destroyed everything, now my world is so black, so blue
Forgive me, my family & friends who stuck by me in life
But most of all, please forgive me, Justine, my sweet beautiful wife
I loved you & I destroyed you, for that I cannot forgive
Without you, I'm going to end it all, I don't wanna live
I will be cremated, my ashes scattered upon your grave
Don't be scared, honey. When we are together again, we can both be brave
I pray for cancer, a disease, anything that will end my life
A knife, a razor, a rope, anything to be with my wife
You are my wife, my soulmate, my every-dream-come-true
Together forever, I will never stop loving you
Soon we will be together again and it will not be in vain
When that day comes, I promise you, honey, there will be no more pain.