Reply ID: 6 u h v

12/30/2017

Dear Rita,

Hello and Happy New Year. I received your latest comments and it was good to hear from you. 4 months my moms has been gone and the pain just feels worse. Some days I don't know what to do. I struggle in my daily life but I don't tell my friends because I'm the one who is supposed to be strong, the one who can handle anything. But I'm not. My mom is dead and I wake up some days and I just don't know what to do with myself. But I do admit that I am so happy that my momma is not hurting anymore. And I love having my daughter back in my life. I'm glad you got the photo from Melanie. She is just a friend but I met her earlier this year & we decided to become friends. She has been a huge help to me this year, her and my new friend Jen. I met them both from this blog that I do. To anyone else reading this, I do apologize that I have not been writing on this blog for awhile, I don't know what to say some days. My heart is broken and I miss my mom so much. I will do better next year in 2018. As for you Rita, did you get the Christmas photo that was sent to you? It is me and sarge the puppy dog who will be going out to be paired up with a disabled wounded warrior, a veteran of war from my country. No matter how your mom feels about you and George, don't talk about it with her. But I do suggest you talk to her. She is your mom and she might not support your choices but she is your mom and moms are the 1 person who loves us no matter what. Moms are just so special and amazing. Call her Rita, you don't need her blessing for loving George. Look at it from her eyes, she just wants you to have a man home with you to love you & take care of you. She does not live your life so she cannot understand. But remember 1 thing Rita, she's your mom and when she is gone, there is no fixing anything. Not our problems, our regrets, nothing. So work on it now. I wanted nothing but to be a son my mom could be proud of, not someone who took another humans life. I refuse to be that person, I refuse to be labelled by my crime. Why did you return to Europe? Why not stay in San Diego with your daughter and grandkids? I'm sure the little one wo absolutely love to have his grandmom close by. The bond of grandmom and grandchild is so special.
Well my friend, I must go. Take very good care of yourself and I hope to hear from you soon. Hope you had a wonderful Christmas and the new year treats us all better. Goodbye for now. Ciao.

Tuo Amico Sempre,

Rob