Date: 5/14/2020 4:37:31 AM Subject: Reply ID:pt29
RftDear Mrs. Tenzintenzin Happy Mother's Day! x's 365!
With lovely hands Letters written
Thanks most assuredly 4 ur womanlyn motherly wisdom. As a man it never dawned on me that a baby spends 40 weeks inside the body of his or her mother. Being on the outside looking in I tend 2 speak in terms of 9-months! Admire how u correlated 40 weeks with Jesus 40 days n 40 nights in the wilderness! in isolation no less. (1 miss isolation...)
Thanks 4 bringing ur wisdom n personal experience 2 the manifest. Love how u articulated how the time comes when the baby can no longer fit! Lord knows that's me kicking n screaming 2 b pushed out
( Think u should do a Ted Talk bout baby's in the wound n its correlation 2 life n the multi facetted seasons that accompany our lifetime of breaths.) 4got all bout the fact that water is present during the birthing process, even though how often have I heard " my water just broke!" Even 2 day heard it on a show entitled For Life Well its try I'm stuck in water Drowning! Literally trying 2 punch n kick my way out! Trying 2 induce labor some kinda way! Blame my need 2 breathe fresh unpolluted n uncorrupted air. The oxygen Jesus feasted on! Oh the heavenly gulps of the breath of life! Amen. I need 2 breathe. Never knew baby's had water that needed 2 b pushed out of its lungs! Maybe I was taught this, but I doubt it... Either way... Learn something new 2days my day... Girl u ain't never lied Prison definitely like that! I NO LONGER FIT. At wits end with everyone everything anything. Drives me nuts. Prison is a whole different animal after one experiences an awakening. Now its more torturous, more uncomfortable, more unbecoming more sickening, more disgusting, more prisony ! I know 2 much. Pretty much a Veteran n a Prison expert 23 years is a career! Don't trip gone make sure my number gets retired! Prison ain't even interesting! After while I can see things coming a mile away! Power trips, hustles, lies, future enemies, future friends, problems, dude who a fight waiting 2 happen, back stabbers,people who'll throw u under the bus, the disloyal.pride, ego, ...u can tell a lot bout someone by their nickname, by the clothes they wear, the signs they put up (sit down. B
quiet. Pants where they should b. Or else!?) Rearrangement they make on they first day on the job. Their language, their jokes (especially if u don't laugh or find it offensive) Prison boring! Stuck in the same day after day. Nothing grows or changes colors or gets redecorated or gets nurtured....
In the Bible its a prayer where king Solomon utters how the heavens of heavens n the earth can't contain God.
That's how I feel bout the God in me that Satan wishes 2 confine 2 a prison/prison cell I'M 2 BIG 4 PRISON.
Well ur words have wrung true. Have Ben challenged directly n indirectly like the guys who insist on taking the shirt off standing half way in my mirror n the one they in front of saying, "Man I'm getting big. Cats don't want none of this. Beast mode...) Mind u it just him n me in the bathroom! I just laugh it off. So called Beast get mad at me cause I at 142lbs aren't intimidated by them or their group! God is the strength of my life whom shall I fear? Psalm 27 Now I been spending more time in my room when not at work. Determined 2 get these college credits. Plus in the process of writing my memoir. Decided 2 not do the usual n tell my life story via a collection of interviews suits my voice more. Just waiting on the notebooks 2 get here so I can officially kick it off! If they not here tomorrow just gone rehash some notebooks I got in my footlocker. The book gets written this year. Amen. Can't wait know its gone change someone's life. N God willing b made into a movie or documentary. Yeah Mrs T,this is how I will prove myself 2 the audience of 1-God! :) Thanks 4 reminding me he there 4 me n 2 do my part n let him do his. Gotta find that healthy balance! Lord knows most times I try 2 play both parts. Ouch! "Just B His son." Needed that. Even made me look at my tattoo GOD'S SON. Then in spired some song? lyrics "Go somewhere quiet n pray" Blessed by it! Like half hour after reading that I got blessed with a few sips of quiet. Gods blessing ur words. N even better yesterday out the blue a guy suggested that I sign up 4 the Reflection Garden. So I wrote the chaplain bout getting an hour by myself in the garden. Waiting 2 see if I can take pen n paper as I do my best Reflecting thru pen n paper! Other than that back praying 2 get up earlier, stay up later? N willing 2 cut things out my schedules 2 get quiet time with God. If push comes 2 shove I'll commandeer a stall! or the shower waiting room. I will not lose.
May 13,2020 So how goes it?
I woke up hating prison n even exclaimed it! But 30 seconds found myself brushing my teeth praying, God I let in a wrong thought. Help me walk in love. Amen That was 7:15am
7:20am I got irritated that the phone wouldn't let me order canteen. As I walked away the social worker who was in view,smiled n said, "I got good news 4 U. U want a commitment? As a baker?" Think my exact words were Hell Yeah! Said he forgot what work release it was 4, but I didn't care I was super geeked knowing God had me right where he wanted me in the center of His will. Later I found out it was 4 Oregon! A prison that was in my top 3 choices 2 go 2! Amen. Now I'm just waiting 2 officially sign the letter, then I should B outta here by June or July if not sooner! Oddly enuff back in July of last year I told someone I'd probably do like a year here! Look at God speaking thru me! Sidebar- a commitment is basically where I agree 2 commit 2 a job in a work release 4 bit 6 months - 2 years! Though the can let me off the hook if my performance is superb,which will help me get a job outside of the prison faster!
Telling u I was so taken aback by this early morning blessing, that my whole body was literally trembling as I went back 2 my cell. So amazed by gods amazingness all I could do was b speechless. Couldn't even think of words 2 thank Him. Even when I got on my knees I still just bowed my head in a state of shock. All I could say, "My god can do everything! Only my god can do that!" First scripture came 2 me was Job 42:2, then I opened my pocket diary n seen Psalm 143:8 "cause me 2 hear Ur loving kindness in the morning!" How fitting!?!
It gets better A codefendant wrote me n told me that the third guy who was with us got Released March 27!
Then he, Tre, told me that he goes 2 parole in June n that he got a Pre Release Investigation!!!! Because of this blessing its literally possible 4 him 2 get Released in the next 30-45 days! Look at God! Also told me that the chairperson of Parole been changing a lot of peoples defer by giving them less time n giving them Pre Release Investigation Amen Thought the social worker was gone tell me my defer got reduced n that I got a Pre Release Investigation!, when he said he got good news! Maybe next time...
Which brings me 2 ur sentiments regarding providing a a letter 2 the Parole board on my behalf. There's always hope. See U can write a" letter of support" at any time! Yup its true! I don't have the address readily available cause I have 2 dig 2 find it, but it can b easily accessed via a click of a mouse! Simply google... Wisconsin Parole Board Or
John Tate || ,Parole Chairman
Speaking of which I walked away from my Parole hearing with An 8-month defern an endorsement 2 work release
In laymen's terms I go back 2 parole in December! In the meantime I will b transfered 2 work release center,where at some point I will b blessed with the opportunity 2 get a job in the free world 2 make n save a decent amount of money ,minus the money I have 2 pay the prison 4 room n board! If not released b4 December its possible I can save upwards of $10,000!
Thanks bunches 4 Ur passionaten sincere pleas n prayers 2 God above 4 my earnest release Imagine me being released during the year when the world was put on incarceration! Sounds so much like poetic Justice!!!! Imagine me being freed 2 free those locked in houses?!? N emotional, spiritual, financial, mental, jail cells. God something else!
Well wouldn't u know it 2 weeks ago I caught a London based show,staring 2 black men as cops (never get an American show 2 do that!) It comes on Wednesdays n is called bulletproof! Ever seen it? Solfar I like the guy Bishop reminds me of me! Plus he definitely fashionable in his Adidas's from head 2 toe. Maybe I can design some adidas stuff that his stylist might select? Wishful thinking!
Seen some podcast featuring Common some actors, producers,excons/writers/rappers. Inspired I'm in the process of contacting Common 4 the second time. But this time I'm gone send the letter 2 his prison reform!organization - Reimagine Justice. Believe he got the heart 2 respond. Keep u posted. I am gone make it.
Still looking forward 2 ur snail mail... Pray it didn't get lost,etc.
How's the husband? Daughter? Heart?
Well the reflection garden only 4 30 minutes if I get the 3pm time slot! Think I'm gone shoot 4
like 10am,which last 4 like an hour! But if not I'll maximize the 30 minutes amen.
Seems that's all I got anything else would b forced
So in closing keep being gorgeous spiritually! How's the Bible reading coming along?
God is great I've experienced it! Amen.
Hey did y'all government give out stimulus $$$$?
Just curious
How r u growing n developing at this very moment?
Alright, nuff said
Nope I lied,
Did get a few writing opps regarding prison n their response 2 Covid 19 or my personal take on it n just general testimony so probably get on that this weekend.
Alright Live right
Peace
God is with U N he just blessed u behind the scenes!!
Respectfully MRF