"No matter what happens, if you look good, everything is better."
- P. C. Cast and Kristin Cast, '(?' - 05-17-20:

Dear Readers,

Howdy! I hope everyone's holding up ok.
I don't really have a lot to report. So far we're still on this lockdown due to COVID-19, so there's not much going on. The original lockdown started on April 1 for two weeks, then that was extended until May 18, which is tomorrow. Everyone is hoping that they'll decide to let us out of our cells and at least go back to a "modified lockdown" like we had in March, where we would be out of our cells, but mostly kept separate from other units.
I sure hope this crap is over soon. I need to get my butt back into the library and typing so I can make some money! I've spent most of this year locked in a cell with nothing to do but lay in bed and read. I love to spend my free time reading, but geez... I need a break!
I don't even have C390 to listen to! Ugh! I had to leave him in the charger for two days last week (this past week) from Mon. to Wed. (Someone said that kills the battery- is that true? I don't really have a choice), then I played it a bunch on Thurs. and the battery died. Whatever the problem is, my battery sucks and it doesn't last long. Very annoying.
I've been sending out letters to various people on groups (and quacking running out of stamps.) I wrote the San Francisco (?) (?) and requested another Buddhist volunteer, (I've had two before, but they eventually quit writing), and this new volunteer coordinator is a complete asshole. His name is C. Schneider and he denied me for this volunteer program. I also asked him if he had any info on groups that help prisoners to find jobs and housing in that area and he wrote me a long paragraph about how expensive it is to live there and did everything he could to discourage me. Umm, that's not what I asked you, dick. I know it's expensive there. I also know there are a lot of groups in that area that are willing to actually help people. Unlike him.
You know, according to Numerology, this is supposed to be a "One" year for me, but so far it's just been a big "#2."
(Check out NUMBERSLADY.COM for info on Numerology).
A lot of people are saying that this COVID-19 outbreak is gonna change the way we live, and although I suspect that they are right, I hope they aren't.
I first started going out to gay bars in Austin, TX in 1984. Although AIDS had started, it hadn't really affected Austin much at that time.
When I started going out, everyone used to greet each other (or say goodbye) with a quick kiss (just a quick kiss, nothing gross or sloppy). Then, as AIDS progressed, all that stopped. No more kissing. People started to keep this distance. I noticed then how things changed and it was really sad.
I hope this new health crisis doesn't change the way everyone acts all over again. Yes, you should be safe during this health scare, but after it's over, please don't let it stop you from being close or showing affection to other people.

Fri. 5/22/20 1:36pm:
Hey y'all! I'm sitting in my usual spot (bed), but in a different cell. Currently C390 is playing "This Is How We Do" (Extended Workout Mix), bu Paulette. We got out for our Fri. "free time" out of our cells a short time ago.
In the latest news...
I'd like to announce the opening of "Club 77!" Different location, some management.
This past Mon., the Counsellor came by and told C-Roe and me to pack up. They cleared out 3 cells (2 four-man and 1 two-man) and designated them as "quarantine cells" for when any new guys come in and or if someone goes outside the prison (like a major outside medical visit) and comes back. Ridiculous.
At first they were gonna put us both in cell 8 - where the lights are broken - which neither of us wanted. Then, "Country" hollers at me and asks if I wanted to move in.
Now, I've probably mentioned Country before. We've not been buddies. That thief and former cellie, not, used to date him, and I picked moving in with Redbeard over him. Huge mistake. We've only been cellies for four days, but we're actually getting along ok (so far).
Oh, when I was moving out of cell 87, I had a full bottle of Ajax which I set on the floor, but when I was looking for it the other day, it was missing. I know that nasty, motherfucking (expletive deleted) C-Roe stole it! That's the third fucking bottle of Ajax in a row that I've had stolen!
I AM SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF BEING STOLEN FROM!!
When I asked C-Roe about it today he got this fake-ass look on his face and denied seeing it, but no one else was in the cell but us. I am so glad I don't live with that nasty (animal) anymore.
So, did they relax the lockdown this week? Barely. They started a new thing so that on Tues. and Thurs. (only), we are let out and we are supposed to walk the entire perimeter of the compound and stop outside the Chow Hall to pick up lunch and our dinner bags. But... we're supposed to only be released in groups of ten at a time.
How well did this work? Well, we usually get our lunch trays around 10:30AM, but since this unit was at the end of the rotation, it was 1:30PM before my group was let out! Usual BOP idiocy.
There's a rumour going around, according to Inmate.com, that they may extend this lockdown until January. Oh. My. God. Something has got to give! If states are relaxing the quarantine, then we should be able to go back to normal. Again, the only way we could catch it is through the staff. Let them wear the masks and let us go back to normal.

Sat. 5/23/20 5:46pm:
Howdy y'all! I'm sitting on my bunk in Club77 listening as C390 plays "Tommie Sunshine's Megamix Smash Up" by Katy Perry and I thought that I'd take a break from reading. I read all of the "House of Night" series by P.C. and Kristen Cast and am now re-reading for the fourth or fifth time, the "Game of Thrones" series by George R. R. Martin. And why the hell can't George ever finish writing that series? Gimme a break.
Ok, as I believe I mentioned while I was in the SHU, we get a box meal for breakfast and lunch, and a warm lunch served in styrofoam. The box meals are pure junk, and everyone's sick of them. A couple of guys have given me a bunch of the crap out of their meals cause they don't want them, and of course I took them cause I rarely ever turn down food. I may be skinny, but I can eat like a pig.
So... just for shits and giggles, I decided to make for you a list of all the junk food I love: (all are single-serving size), 18 Nutrakiss honey- flavoured oat rings cereal; one box of Rice Krispies; a brown paper bag with 47 (?) of peanut butter (which warns you that it contains peanuts. Duh.); 22 miscellaneous cereal bars; three strawberry multi-grain cereal bars; two chocolate cakes; one coffee cake; two strawberry Pop-Tarts; one (?); Belvita bars; 16 (?). Golden Oats Breakfast biscuits; one (?) of "premium granola"; two gingerbread cookies; a strawberry (again?) fruit and grain bar; one (?), iced cookies; one serving each of pink and baby blue snack pack puddings (with a unicorn on the package); 14 packs of Minees cookies in various flavours; five apples and two kiwis.
And there's nothing to do but sit in bed and eat... It takes a lot for me to gain weight, but my stomach is getting a bit bigger...
Ok, back to Westeros! (I think I need a snack too. Hmm...)

Sun. 05/24/20 5:30pm:
So here I am in my cell on a dreamy Sunday as "Everybody (Backstreets' Back)" by the Backstreet Boys comes on C390. This is a holiday weekend. Woopee. Since it's a holiday tomorrow, (Memorial Day, for those of you not from the U.S.), they're changing our schedule tomorrow. Instead of getting out for 1 and a half then, we're going to do that on Tues., and have the "walk the perimeter of the ground thing "tomorrow to pick up our meals.
There was a little excitement this morning. Shortly after 8:00AM, when the CO coming on did his first round, he found my last cellie, C-Roe, in his cell and "unresponsive." They got a bunch of staff in here at his cell (he was living alone), and brought in a stretcher and took him out of here. Country said that he sad blood and it looked like his chest was wrapped up and they had an IV on him. Weird.
He had said that he might do something extreme to get out of this unit, but I figured that he was just going to threaten to kill himself. He was wearing his prison khakis, so it looked like he had it planned. Strange. Country also said that later they put up crime scene tape over his door.
And, for the record, no, I don't give a damn about some slime ball who stole from me and screwed me over on another deal we made.
Ok, there's not much else to report, so until next time, I wish you...
Love and blessings,
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