"The Puzzle of Life"
11-19-12

Hello again world...it was suggested that maybe I was trying to pull wool over people's eyes as I expressed myself through a pen. It wasn't my intent to make it sound like I lived in a vacuum. It just wanted to express my frame of thought when I felt I had nothing to live for past tomorrow. Just for the record, I deeply appreciate this platform, furthermore I don't know what being fake feels like. Yes, we are all products of all our life experiences, and that is never more the case than today. Because in every city around the world you will find an urban ghetto full of drugs and guns. Both of which breed hate & pain in the eyes of many this is a cocktail of death and destruction, but for those who reside there its home sweet home.

Life is about experiencing what life throws at us, but from the start I felt I was destined to fail. I was raised by a single mother; bless her heart, she did the best she could trying to raise a boy into a man. All the while she was caught up into into living the street life. Drugs what you, and I was put into situations forcing me to be a man for my sibling when I was just learning to stand without a helping hand. It seems all I knew was hurt, and as I grew I had a heart that didn't bleed. Today it scares me to think of all the pain my eyes have seen. As I started to mature and contemplate the puzzle of life. I thought maybe it's in our own best interest that we don't have all of the pieces to the puzzle of life. In some weird way it keeps me grounded as I continue to search for horizons I've never seen.

I often wonder, does it serve me right to suffer and to be alone? But yet still I'm hoping for more. Someone helped me realise a person with no forgiveness in their heart lives a worse punishment than death. So, as I start the next chapter of my life, I would like to say Linda (MA), I want you to know I understand. Even though I hate the larceny in your heart from your sickness, I appreciate you and still love you! I'll keep praying for you.

World, let me close with this: we got to try and see the good in one another and even though it gets trying at times we got to love each other.

Till next time,

PEACE