12-25-12
Hey Deb,
Lets see... you wrote me about "forgiveness" around April 2011, After I sent that harsh letter out with Brandon for you about that monster matter. I`m sorry honey, but B. had me convicted it was all bad and so I struck out at you. Seriously, I`m very sorry Deb.
The reason I`m writting you now is because I do understand what you`ve gone through over the years wiht the guilt and shame. I`ve been going through it myself-only I usually find someone else to take my grief out on. I`ve taking it out on myself to and had become aware of my need of humility before I would ever be worthy for forgiveness. Thing being said, I humbly hope that you can sincerely forgive me someday as I hope to also forgive myself.
You 2011 letter did say that you forgave me.. but believe me, you can`t forgive me for any crazy comment because that was never my mission. Rather to be perfectly honest I was supposed to do a Timothy, Mcvey thing at the court houes. Instead, I was kinda convinced that i would be reincarnated as an Ethiopian fly-catcher if I exicuted that mission- so I didn`t, and ending up endangering my family trying to avois a certain 3rd. Strike. All of my grandstand protests around the country didn`t really leave me any way out- and I couldn`t finish what I had started. I can`t apologize for that as I`m still living to become a better man. But I am terribly sorry for for bringing all of the traumatizing drama into you lives. Can you ever forgive me for that? Can I? I really regret invloving you and our family. I understand what it must have put you through, I do- and Iam so sorry.
I`ve been attending a coupld self-help groupls here lately which have me addressing alot of my issues, and ...well, I just want you to know that I sincerely pray for your complete healing. Have faith sweetheart, We live and we learn- god is love.
Be blessed.