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Melissa,

Hey - how goes it? Me, well I guess you could say I have had a really eventful morning one I would have much rather skipped. Something I feel as though I want to let the self-control I have inside me fade to nothingness but of course I can't do that even on a good day. :( I got your message I think a few days ago but alas I have been pretty preoccupied this past weekend. I must apologise because I am usually good at managing my time even in a place where I am told pretty much how to use it. Nothing like a 10:30 curfew to make you feel just like a teenager again. I find myself quite curious about you seeing as how I honestly did not expect to ever hear from you again. I guess I forgot to mention I don't have the greatest of people skills. Being where I am it's not easy to hide. And I guess you could say it is much of a hindrance to me in so many ways. But there is really nothing that I can do about it or use to my advantage. It seems like in here when a person has a flaw it's like it seems to show like a bright red flag or a light house in the darkest of nights. Funny things are that way I guess. As much as I was happy to hear back from you I was saddened to find that most of the options you describe are currently unavailable to me. Which really I have learned to come to terms with this place and not focus on what is not here. Which I can't decide if that is good or bad yet. I feel like my hormones are messed up because I almost never have a cycle and I can't figure out why this is. I don't we even know if I have PMS like everyone else around me. But being in here there are not a lot of options besides birth control and I really don't want to go down that route for many reasons. So really I'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place. I am subscribing to a yoga magazine and it just has not started coming yet. I will check to see about the vitamins. But I won't let all this get me down too far in the pits. Believe it or not I have come a long way. You would really be surprised if you had met me a few years ago :) Well, I won't keep you. I hope you are doing well. I hope to hear back from you soonest. I wish you all the best take care of YOU and God bless!!

Sarah