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Do as thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.

Pax Vebiscum,

Life at times doesn't seem to want to allow one to remain optimistic, every day bringing with it consuming darkness and dancing shadows. At times I truly wonder how anyone can be anything other than nihilistic? However, I do suppose we must seek the light, even in the darkness.

I believe it is in the heart of darkness that one must sit and learn the secrets of silence that they might in return set out to successfully construct that temple with stones that no hammer nor chisel hath defiled.

Haven't heard from Zahna in quite some time now, she was supposed to visit on the 20th and 27th of April, but a no show for each date. Thus no word from her leaves me to ponder whether or not she has decided to move on? Never could I blame her for she's given me 7 plus good & joyous years and should she depart here, then I could only bid her farewell with utmost love and warm prayers and blessings. Sadness no doubt would engulf this heart, yet for her happiness and success, it would be but a small sacrifice.

This said - allow me to share a few poems with you.

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"Running"

Running carelessly through the hallways of life,
Swimming without aim nor guidance through its mur-
Ky sea of strife. Neither here nor there - can't
Seem to find that guiding light anywhere.

Running without hesitation into the arms of my
Old nemesis, death, like the young virgin falling
Into the arms of her love - palpitating heart, panting
Breath. Running! Can't outrun life so deceiving.

Running as fast as we can, often with no sense
Of direction - dead into a land of nowhere, so
In need of correction; send us that guidance,
That light of direction from somewhere.

D.E. Bauguess 4/15/2013

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"Deliver Us"

Come my dear, would you wipe away these
Bloody tears and sing with me to calm the
Inner years. Help me tore away evil's disguise,
Then uncover heaven's violent demise.

Innocence - in all its youth, is there any serious relevance?

How subtly is it stolen by time, that old slithering
Thief and with it, the most ancient of temples robbed
Of belief. Wake me up and sail me across time's tur-
Bulent seas - send me off into the heart of life's
Cruelest realities.

Send me a prophet, one to teach me the way to tran-
Scend this world of illusion and escape all the
Bloody confusion. Tell me, my beloved friend;
Will it all really matter in the end?

Where is this man-made god they say can save
Us - give deliverance and peace ever so glorious?
From this world so chaotic, each breath, every step
Seemingly disastrous; Do you truly believe that
Anyone can or will deliver us?

David "S [ankh] X" Bauguess 3/17/2013

Thanks, once again for the opportunity to share a little bit of myself. For each and every one beyond these prison walls it is my will and desire that warm smiles & laughter fill their hearts and lives.

Love is the law, love under will.

Pax Vebiscum
David "S [ankh] X" Bauguess
4/28/2013

"Nosce te ipsum, sic itur ad astra... per aspera!"
"Know thyself, thus one goes to the stars... by hard ways!"