Sept. 23, 2013: 6:40am: Watching Sportscenter on ESPN.

Jan, hi, I wanted to thank you for your comment for taking the time to try to enlighten me on the process and also to not give up. You sound like you know a lot about this process but you didn't know much about my situation so you couldn't give me too many answers. My daughter, Krista, is in a place called The Village Network in Ohio. I really have no idea what it is. The courts terminated all parental rights recently. I am in contact with her therapist at The Village Network. But she has no authority on if I can speak with Krista or not. That's up to her social worker in Children & Family Services. I have already begged this woman not to take Krista away from her family. She doesn't know us very well but I explained that taking her from the only people who do love her, it won't help her. Right now I am waiting for her to contact me and let me know if I can be in Krista's life or not. Krista has too many problems and I think that's why she wouldn't be a candidate for adoption. I wish someone would love her and give her a chance. I am really afraid for her for the day she turns 18. Where will she go, what will she do? Krista does not know my side of the family. She grew up in Ohio and we are from PA. No one in my selfish family is willing to step up and say I will take her in and do my best. Her social worker has contacted and asked that to everyone in my family that she was given the contact info for. Krista's G.A.L. attorney said that he sees no real reason why she should have any contact with me or my family since she barely knows us. She only knows me through letters but I am trying to make them all understand that she has been abandoned, this is not good for her mentally or emotionally. I was recently told that I can write to Krista, through her social worker, and she will give it to Krista after she reads it herself and deems it appropriate. So I just painted something for her and sent a birthday card. I just want her to know she is not alone. I know alone. I know what it's like to be forgotten. To go weeks, months, without someone writing to you and just saying they love you. I don't want that for her. Krista's mother wants nothing to do with her so that makes this so much harder for her. I have my mom, but I want so much for Krista to really know her grandmom. Krista's mother's side has completely cut her off. Thank you for your words of encouragement, Jan, and be sure that I will never give up. I do get discouraged and sometimes I lose my optimism but I won't give up on my little girl. I'm going to get a photo of her. The only one I have is the one on my profile page of us when we met in 2006. I only had enough money for 2 photos and I love that one. Back then they charged us $5.00 for each photograph. Prison has long stopped being about rehabilitation and punishment. Now it's all about money. But that's a topic for another time. Take care, Jan, and thank you for your words. God bless. Ciao.