To My Daughter
Not knowing you hurts me more than not being
able to be there for you.
And to apologize would be like disrespect to you.
Even though it's not my true intent,
it's all I can offer you...
Besides my tears.
And even those hold no merit,
for the pain I've caused.
Even if you were to forgive me one day,
it wouldn't make up for the time we've lost.
To hear you were adopted
almost ended my life,
only the chance at one day knowing you
is why I haven't ended my fight.
And even though I don't deserve your forgiveness
you will "forever" be my baby.
And though I have no right asking this of you,
(But I will)
"Please" don't hate me.
Shall I not speak of the truth.
The truth that romances reality.
And to which so many have become casualties;
Shall I reveal close kept secrets that
only the suffering can teach?
That truly can't be embraced beyond the mind's
But only true to one's belief,
only by action will the key become peace.
Or shall I say what was the blame.
And what would it take for one to be whole
When truly there are no words to express such a private pain.
Shall I gather the broken pieces of my soul?
Shall I drop my head,
drag my feet,
and confine myself to alone?
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