"Sometimes a lover's gift is even sweeter when he cannot be there to offer it in person."
—Leronica Pergiet (from Dune: The Machine Crusade by Brian Herbert and Kevin C. Anderson)

02/25/14

Dear Readers,

Howdy! Thanks to all of you who read my blog and who support me with your comments! Please forgive me if I repeat something I've previously mentioned. I need to keep a log of what I write about and when. Sorry!

I think I mentioned that I received a letter out of the blue from a former "look up." Well, he's written back and I hope he continues. I'm really surprised, shocked even, that this guy took the time to look me up and write to me after all this time. I just can't imagine someone doing that for me, especially after all the former "best friends" who intentionally turned their backs on me.

I also think I mentioned the so-called Aryan who totally shit on me. He has sent messages via my cellie that he regrets what happened, and I told him that if he felt that way, he needed to man up and tell me himself. Then we can work things out. So far, he hasn't.

I finally got a card last week from my "best friend" Pam who stopped emailing me on Dec. 9. She did the same thing the last fall and blew me off for 2 1/2 months without a word. I sent her an email after I got her card and chewed her out—it sucks being treated like this—and she hasn't responded.

Pam wrote that she didn't sell one thing that I sent her that I had crocheted. I'm sure she's not lying, but I find that hard to believe. The one time she took things to a store, about five years ago, I made $300. Since then my skills have improved, so I'm sure she's just not trying. I bought some photo tickets so I can post pictures of some of my work.

I went to sick call at medical about a lump in my chest. It has since doubled in size and is clearly visible. Yes I still haven't been seen by anyone. My cellie ran out of some regular prescription that he needs for health issues and, instead of automatically renewing them and/or scheduling him to be seen by someone, they're telling him that he needs to go to sick call—where he'll be charged $2—because he's not getting the medical attention he needs. It's ridiculous. Also on the medical front, there's a bug going around (flu?) and everyone is getting sick. Illnesses spread easily in here. My cellie felt sick and I'm starting to get a sore throat. Yikes!

My former friend Dawn went to the sex offenders' unit a couple of weeks ago to got to court to see if he'll be released or committed. Dawn uses people and will fuck over anyone with no regard, as I learned. Dawn was telling two different guys that he was going to live with them when he got out so they both would send him money, which they did based on this lie. Well, I knew one of the guys 'cause he used to be here before he was released. I finally got his address and let him know what was going on. I hear that Dawn has been cut off. He told someone here and made me out to be the bad guy and him the victim. He's the one lying to someone and using them for money. I don't think so. Payback is a bitch, and so am I.

Love and blessings,
Kelly