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FROM: Calvin D. Chism.T/34897, San Quentin State Prison, CA 94974
AT: http//betweenthebars.org/blogs/6324
ATTN: Please Post..DATE: 3/19/14

REARVIEW MIRROR...

Ok! Now I am getting pissed off, we just got off lockdown and as I am on my way back from the shower, I see a blue post alerting all staff that I was on modified program with no privilages. What the hell I do? I did not find out till 10 days later when I was given a notice that I was locked down as part of the [SGT2] Security Threat Group CRIPS. For alleged threats against staff - nothing to do with me. It's been 15 days now, I am getting restless! As I asked to go outside! I am at a point of I can't take this sh** no mo! He He told me no! So I laid back down and fell to sleep in a dream all I seen was a rearview mirror, I could not make out anything but the little inscription on the bottom.

"Objects may appear closer than they are."

Ironic huh? But trip I was woke up by a cop asking me if I wanted to go outside! I jumped out the bed like my pants was on fiure! L.O.L. I could not get dressed fast enough. So a few days later as I reflected on my mind state, I recall the thought myself why didn't they have the mirrors reflect the actual distance of the objects behind you??? Did they want you to be cautious at all times of what is behind you? Yes! Because it can be detrimental to your present or future. Now I reckoned that our past can be twisted in the hands of the enemy. But if I had kept my past in my mind, instead of trying to move past it, I would not have gotten frustrated!!!

Today I learned that what is behind you must be embraced and not supressed! Because it is a part of what made you, and today! If you are at peace with what is behind you and conciously guard yourself it is impossible to be used against you. So what you see in your rearview mirror may be closer than it appears, but being at peace with it the results, means it can't do as much damage now...

And you can focus on what's ahead!!!