July 2, 2019


by Calvin Chism (author's profile)


Calvin D. Chism T-34897
San Quentin State prison
S.Q., CA 94974



All my life since I started to remember the women I knew and called momma was in and out of my life like passing seasons. But she has always been my number one lady. Every girl except one in some way replicated some quality I seen in my mom.

She had me when she was 14 years old. My dad was only 15 years old. Who at that age knows how to raise a child?

I was 8. We lived in a one bedroom apartment. My little brother Russell and my little sister Takeysha were just born. I raised them while my mom did what she felt was necessary to survive.

I became bitter as I grew up, comparing my life to what I saw around me. Being bounced back and forth from the east to the west side of Compton with relatives.

It was not until I was 17 years old in the California youth Authority in a religious ritual where I put all my burdens, hate, disputes on a piece of paper and nailed them to a wooden cross and set them on fire. It was not until that time that I began to see my upcoming for what it was, and the agony my mom must have felt powerless to control, let alone take the necessary steps to get us back.

I spent a lot of time with my mom. We always managed to find one another. She was my ride or die. :) No matter what!

Even after 15 years, when she began to become ill, God made a way for us to reconnect. God is something else! I had to reassure her it was never her fault. Life is a bitch who wigs on fire. :)

On June 5, 2019, in my little sister's arms, she let go.

Please don't underestimate the power of love and family. Unbelievable, uncontrollable, grief. Just like when my granny passed on. I felt like I could cope after my granny, but I was wrong.

You have to let it come and go. You will feel a lot better. Nothing but facts.

The power of true love can
make you or break you
my upcoming made me
strong enough
to rebound
If you learned anything from your experience
than you better than most.

Ms. Kristina Brown

RIP Momma. You will always be
my #1 lady.

Your number one son,
Calvin Chism

1/2 pint
I luv u...

Though it's like a mirror.
One looking at it sees his image inside and thinks that there are two images, but the two are really one.
The mirror of thought
The Kabbalatt


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Julia Posted 5 years ago. ✓ Mailed 4 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
Dear Calvin,
I am sorry for your loss,
warm greetings, Julia

Bubble80 Posted 4 years, 8 months ago. ✓ Mailed 4 years, 8 months ago   Favorite
Sorry for your lost of your mother i know the feeling my mom as pass also im in central fla reading your letter Thks for sharing a part of your life in your lovely Mother.

Bubble80 Posted 4 years, 8 months ago. ✓ Mailed 4 years, 8 months ago   Favorite
Sorry for your loss i understand the feeling my mom as pass also im reading your letter from central Florida thks for sharing a part of your life an your lovely mother.

Tenzin Posted 4 years, 8 months ago. ✓ Mailed 4 years, 8 months ago   Favorite
I'm not a Christian, but a friend of mine is and she always says, "Your loss is God's gain".
Sending love from here in the UK

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