Reply ID: viu9

31 August '14

Hey you two-

I'm replying to you both in this letter since I was pleasantly surprised by the both of you together on this site. In time, I do wish to get ot know each of you individually though - believe that!

Okay then...where to begin? when I received your messages on this site (in record time)8/28, I immediately mailed out a note to acknowledge your communications, and asked Joe to text it onto my site directly for you two to see...which may have seemed puzzling at the time, so let me explain.

This blog-site is managed by MJJ, and since its a free prisoner outreach service, the exponential increase of subscribers is causing a corresponding work load delay in processing the in/out flow of letters. Based on this, I didn't want for you to have to wait for weeks, possibly, for my reply without somehow getting word to you that I was as happy as ...um... I was as happy as happy could be when your loving words landed - and to let you know to expect my blog reply ASAP. I asked Joe to post that one for me in a snail-mail letter to him, as he is genuinely supportive in my efforts to live up to my potential - which naturally involves restoring relations with family, despite my incarceration. I expect that Joe must think it almost seems as if Providence is orchestrating all of this...and I must agree that it looks like Gods handiwork to me too, and I'm blessed.

So where do we go from here, you two? I was told that you were both forbidden to communicate with any of us - for all these years? What's up with that? I've been able to get news about your mom and siblings trickled in over the years, but there was no one I could get any new from about you two. I'd really like for you to tell me everything about all these years I've missed in your lives: your best memories, your worst; your hobbies, your favorite subjects in school, your home life, etc.

Look, don't color me too crazy when I say that I breathed a proud sigh of relief when I read what you said about the both of you "been through hell and back...but...can't really complain." Yea, life can be challenging at times my dear, but it is in the struggle that we discover so much about ourselves. I'm proud of you for overcoming your hells and finding your way back to us, you two. Really proud! I have wondered and worried so much about you that I had to add you onto a silentunity.org national prayer list, and now look, here you are. Someday I'd like for you to share what you've learned along your path in life. I'm especially interested in what your plans are too. What do you see yourselves doing - let's say, three years from now?

I'm so glad that Destiny has sent you some of the old artwork. I want to comment on that in relation to your path in life and future goals okay? You see, I've invested thousands of hours in that vocation, and I can tell all of you that artwork - like life - requires Intention and Patience. when I intend to produce something for instance (as in: where do you see yourselves in three years), I consider the tools and material I will need and I begin, patiently, piecing together my project - be it art/letters/life - what have you. I'ts weird in a way, but the more attention I put into my intentions...it usually produces awesomeness. I'm just saying that the same can be said about life in general.

Come on! Go ahead and ask me what happened to my life then. Seriously, you are welcome to ask me about anything. Your forgiveness of course is very much appreciated...yet I don't want that to deprive you all from the understanding of events in our lives. The more you understand, the better equipped you are to be responsible in whatever it is which you intend, you see?

So what can I say about the stories you're "hoping aren't as true as" they're made to seem? Do you mean to say that you dare doubt the FEAR, my dear? Ata girl! Nothing makes me prouder than confronting False Evidence Appearing Real, and putting things into proper perspective. Let's see, as forgiveness implies one accused...then to forgive the FEAR you've both been fed. I can explain everything whenever you wish for any reason - just ask.

At this point though, let me break the ice by saying Whereas some people are content drawing stick figures...I've dared to do greater works - and consequently I've produced pieces which adorn the homes of family and friends across the country...not to discount the many tattoos I've done far better than you'll usually see even tattoo magazines. I might not be featured in galleries or museums (yet), but I can say that my creations do live on in peoples lives. Likewise, I can say the same bout my life. Whereas most people are content to "fit in" somewhere, I just didn't cotton to the conformity thing...which probably would have been okay if I hadn't dared to challenge everyone else's conformity. But I had a personal vendetta against ignorance apparently (as the root of that word is ignore), and so consequently I had to raise a ruckus. I'm not the first or only one to have taken on that challenge, as you can see for yourself in the preamble of our Constitution, called the Declaration of Independence, where our forefathers noted..."all experience hath shown, that mankind are more disposed to suffer while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed...". On that note I was raising a ruckus out there. I can elaborate on this someday if you wish to understand what made me challenge the status quo. But rest assured, when a culture misguided, drifts further and further toward ruin - it needs men of courage to speak out. Let's face it, it wasn't raining when Noah built the Ark.

I don't know if you've read all the newspaper articles I've posted since the beginning of this site, so I will attach a couple here now which may somewhat help explain the cause of our family fall. There are many other factors as well which I will be glad to clear up for you privately in snail mail or publicly on the web. But in any case, know this: It has always been Love that has motivated me - not hate. This is what makes your love for me all the more dear.

You'll have to pardon me if all this seems too much too fast, but at 51 and 1/2, I'm on the other side of the mountain and a developing cataract prompts me to say it all as I see it...while I can. If any of you would like to know more about me from other people, who actually know me - I have a growing list who I'd really like for you to contact and ask what they can tell you about your dad.

Joe, of course (jriley@bridgepub.com) has introduced himself here, and though we've only recently met - as a Minister, I've revealed the depths of my soul to him...shared old letters, pictures, and ...well, he has introduced himself to my sister Heather, as well as Montana, Mike (humblethyself@gmail) whose family has become my surrogate family over the years t help maintain my humanity. And then there's Rick, a grandpa now - who knew me when I was your ages, and would like to tell you some stories. He is supposed to be coming up for Bakersfield to visit with me soon. Your mm met him when I took her to Long Beach, so you can have her contact him too (wolfejrrichard@yahoo.com). Believe me kids, I believe that you will be pleasantly surprised by the stories about your dad, and the love people have for him. All in all, I've lived and I've loved - passionately, in the few years I had out there. I do regret that I haven't been there for you all, but I am here for you if and whenever you want to share some time with the old man. Nothing makes me happier than to see what you ahve to say, so write again soon. I'd love to see some pictures too.

All my Love.
Be Blessed.

See attached:

1 - Michelle's sage advice to me
2- Remember the children - article
3- Custody dispute/support articles
4- Support article with flag