"Vacaville Prison"

Here I am sitting in CMF at this wonderful medical facility wondering what and the hell am I doing in this prison. I'm not sick, I'm not in a wheelchair, I don't even need a cane for Christ sakes. I'm here on a fluke. Do you think I should be here? I personally like doing my time here. I'm in a 1 man cell. "Single cell". The staff/guards, nurses, doctors, etc. all treat me with respect. They are really nice to all the prisoners. I've been doing time in CA prisons since 1992. I've done time in Suzanville, Tracy, CMC, and now Vacaville. Oh, lets not forget Pelican Bay for 13 years. Yea on the maximum security. I try to forget the Bay. It was a nightmare at times. CMF is like no other joint I've done time at. Honestly I could do a lot of years here. I have been at CMF for 122 days now and I like this prison more than any of the others that I've done time at. The one thing that takes time to get use to is all the people who are sick. Also just so you know this is where the inmates who are getting ready to die are sent to. There is a hospice unit. It's where you go to die. It's very sad in hospice and I just hope I never have to be sent there to die like the old convicts. The terminal. Lots of people with cancer and Hep C come to die here. I don't want to live in hospice.

I'm trying to get a job in hospice to help inmates on their last days. I'm sure they are scared but maybe I can show them some type of comfort through talking with them. Laughter is what I'll be doing. When you're dying why not go out with laughter. I'm about to turn 45 years old on Feb 28th, 2015. I have 20 years in straight and I don't know if they will ever let me go home. I love my family so much and I would like to be with them for some time before they pass on. I'm the youngest of 3 boys. My middle brother Jerry don't write or talk to me anymore. I love him. He is family even though he don't act like it. My oldest brother Levi and his wife Robin are the 2 most important people in the world to me. I will give my life for them at any time period. My best friend is Scot Pinkerton. He was my cell mate for 5 years. We are family. I love Scot. He has always since the day we met treated me with the respect that I've earned. I count the days till we are doing time together again. I would rather see my brother Scot get paroled and then come visit me in the visiting room. Till that day happens I'll continue to count the days till the prison bus drops Scot off here at CMF.